11 June 2008

It’s a Wednesday morning…. 8.30… Oh no… why did I not heard my phone’s alarm ring... !!!

Set the alarm at 7.40 yesterday nite… I woke up when the first call sounded… I guess I snooze it 1 too many times.

Anyway… there I was going thru the whole routine. Wash up + shower(quick one) – got dressed up & off I was – walking really swift… darn…. Just miss the monorail by 3 sec. Thank goodness the monorail comes every 5 min. (not like KTM)

At last… reached my office… I was 8 minutes late…. (A-G-A-I-N).

9.00 AM – ‘ Daniel ! In the room please – ‘ Daryl my boss said.

There were only 2 things going thru my mind

– 1.Punctuality 2. My Appraisal. Oh no... I going to be screwed this time.

* For those dun know – I am doing telemarketing & my employment is on a contract basis subjected to review every 6 months. Appraisal is done my bosses by evaluating my performance & discipline as a whole.

To summarize what transpired during that 1 to 1 meeting… I was definitely warned bout my punctuality & how this was not the first time, then the it went to the issue of my appraise/renewal of contract. Boss (STM) said that he had spoken to my big boss(RSM) regarding my renewal.

But RSM said they would have to re-consider as I was constantly going gainst the company’s rules & my punctuality sucks…

Of course my Boss did share some thoughts on how he thinks I was…. & he was true… I still have much more to learn. My way to approaching matters still immature – too outspoken, MOODY… Over confident….

But, Thank You boss… at least you informed me… I shall make changes…

Recollection : Late for school

Today.... Everybody i chat with online are down....



I was in a good mood at first... but brought down by them....



But its ok... abit of music & things are up & running...



While deep in thoughts... i suddenly remembered my high skul days, remembered that it was quite fun, it was also a lot of hell...



How notorious i was in skul, got into the bad light among the teachers... The most famous - Late for school all the time... Although its a not a good confession, but half of be is proud to hold the record of most number of ' lewat datang ke sekolah' record...



Haha... that brought back a bit of smile to me... Out of the 200 over days of compulsory schoolling.. i was only absent for around 10 days.. including ponteng & really sick. But my 'lewat ke sekolah' record was just supervb... ^^... almost 70 % late to school...



Well, not that i support ppl being late... but still to me it is a memorable part of my life...



........ coming back to now.... I'm still struggling to be punctual .... Thank goodness my boss is not so strict... or else... if not sure long time 'fry sotong'



* Back to reality *

Die... All die in the end.... DIE !!!

Its happening .... A little later than might have been expected....



First implimentation -AUGUST 2008 suggested by Ministry...



This is what I would imagine in a not too long future.....



Fuel Prices Increase - Turn to Alternative - Biofuel (Oil Palm) - Other archiculture neglacted - Shortage of Staple - Increase of Food - Everything increases - Cut on Employment - More layman unemployed - More Crime - Everybody DIES....





DIE DIE DIE.....



Where are we heading to ? Why all these unfairness.....



'Poor getting poorer.... Rich getting richer.... '

Sigh

Putting this feeling down in writing..

Arkward it may seems... Its like being attached to it...

Dunno how to describe it.... But i shall remember this familiar feeling.... This day.... June 3....

Where am i heading to??

Haiz..... A long one indeed.... & it wont be the last...

I will 'see' again soon....

Outlook of matters...

During the weekends, went hang out with some of my brothers frenz at Bangsar .
We were talking bout current developments in the life. Everyone seemed to be doing very well. At a certain point, we talked bout career & salaries.

Oh my, all of them were earning alot !!! All of the sudden, I felt so insignificant so ashamed of myself .

Joshua (23) - Programmer at DIGI - paid RM 500 + for 8 hours of OvT.
Brandon(24) - Asst Mngr at HSBC - basic earning - RM5.5 K,
Tan(21) - Tele-Collector - 2 yrs older than me, just got his new VIOS ( on installment of course )

I felt so useless as what I am earning would be no where near them. I felt the pressure. I asked myself, ' What is wrong with me ? ' ' Am i not as good as them ? '

After a while I realized that in life - there is alwiz 2 kinds of outlook when looking at things.
Its something like this, we can look at others with envy - others better than us; But have we ever compare ourselves with those less fortunate & say to ourselves 'How lucky I am !! '

Our outlook towards things really can affect our mood & happiness.

Lesson drawn from this - In some point of life, comparison is good as we will strive to improve. However, being contented & appreciative for what we already have is more important.

The fact is - we might compare ourselves with others but each of us possess a measure of valuable things.

These would include a our health & strength, inborn mental abilities & gift/talents or financial resources.

Rather than being dissatisfied with what we don't have, shouldn't we think how lucky we really & proud for who we are ?