Tired ~

I am tired of everything..

Sick of myself...sick of how things are...

I suddenly remembered what causes a stone heart... damn it..

I hate being human - human with feelings... hate that feeling that makes me so weak within...

I want reforms...I miss being rebellious... I m confused...

I wish to let the Devil within let loose.

And perhaps I will ~ very soon i think?

Barclays Premier League CHAMPIONS 2009 - coming to KL !!

Hail the champions !! No offense to supporters of the other football clubz ... but there can only be 1 winner - THE BEST ! 

Slightly late in putting this post of celebration, needing a point from 2 matches, Manchester United sealed the EPL 2009 title with a goaless draw with Arsenal - rather dull game i would say...

Neways - here are some nice wallpaper taken from Man Utd's official website. Click here to view more in regards to this. Some cool papers below :)

Btw, would believe most hard core Man U fanz, or not so hard core would know that there are coming to town - KL on  18 July 09. 2 more months exactly to go? Hohoho... gonna rock ! Hear that gonna be 85k tickets available on sale for the frenly match at Bukit Jalil National Stadium !

ProEvents International Sdn Bhd would be the official organizers of the ManU Asia Tour 2009;

Ticketpro Malaysia Sdn Bhd has been appointed as the ticket agents. Official sales of the ticket should be by 1 June 2009, but early birds may pre-purchase tickets from selected Nike Concept Stores & Al-Iksan Sports Stores. The period open for the early bird is from 22nd - 31st May 2009. Early bird gets extra free ticket to watch ManU in training :)

Pricing starts from RM 58 & VIP tix going for RM 308. There's even student price too i heard - RM 28 but limited number thou...

Anyway, it would be super chun for them to come over...

Champion league around the corner - lets hope they can grab another trophy in the bag for this season. Rather tricky though since there are going against Barcelona !!

Hail the champions once more !!

Apologies

I know this makes no difference since whatever happened has already past & time cannot be reverted. But I am really sorry for what I did...there was 2 different thoughts going on my mind when it happened.

I ve gotta admit that I am indeed guilty without any doubt. I guess the crack of selfish trait has shown its tail - I worry if it would get worse...

I shouldn't have raised my voice... i should have control my anger...

My concerns did in fact trouble me & I just didnt realize how obvoius it was reflected on my face. That sour / moody face & blady expression of disgust...

I m really sorry... knowing that right now lots of thinking is going on, on both sides... 

I feel helpless - i abhor that feeling so much... the feeling of not being able to control...

But that's just what it is... I cannot control the outcome & i am lost of how to settle this issue as of now... perhaps & perhaps only time will reveal the future...

Not good in expression sorrow in words... wont do much relieve either...

...(dot dot dot ... )

Update - 1 paper 2 go, Slight Intro2new Blog...

Huray !!! 3 papers down...

1 more additional paper more next week - which also spells the END of Sem 3... Seems been awhile since i have been attending classes but still Sem 3 only...

Been writing so lengthy answer but thats because i've got nothing in my brain... just got to pen something down instead of leaving it blank... cant afford to fail...

And so I planned many things, and many more to come... as like before i also plan + wishful thinking = zero achieved *guilty smile*

And lets see, i would come out if a list of "Things to do" if i wasn't so disorganized, in additional to being a procastinator + day dreaming overly too much.... busy..... (bla bla bla...)

Do hope to launch the new blog that i wanted at least before my b.dae... at least a place where i can pour out freely... this blog is more like a "Mama's Boy - kind of blog" should there be a comparison with the blog i m planning to launch... Gonna voice out grudges, disastisfaction + bang others + release tension... and remain Anonymous for the most part of it...

Just the thought of it also SYOK... but will take time to try to put everything together..

Hmmm... got more to say but i ll leave it for next time... 

*P/S - This blog is becoming more like my personal diary...

Till then, got a feeling that i ll be back soon... Cheers & Good Nite Ppl !

Exam mau mali - Damn stress !!

Will be starting a new blog by next month =p

Kind of liking the idea of it - i like it anyway...

Tuesday would sem 3 exam for me... but haven even started studying much as off now. Still got 1 more hours.. or perhaps i count down by the hours? i guess this fact testify or confirms that i'm a 'last minute' person.

But tension & pressure + stress is definately mounting - hate exams !! But really cant wait till exam finishes - its like a new fresh page, a new sem... so much planned forth.... 

However, somehow these days not feeling so at ease as I should be...its like the sort of feeling of "Dejawu"... knowing something bad might happen... or perhaps that just anxieties ... Going on study leave tmr... thankfully... but the shitty part is I am still worried about my work... hard to explain over here... I guess I have to somehow push that thought aside for the moment & let what comes - comes...

Actually trying to re-discover the feeling that i once had... the determination ... miss that feeling... that is why m planning to start that new blog... to pump up & hopefully that feeling does come back to me... 

I'll be back... wish me luck for exam !!

Random

Suppose to be a week to get my mind filled with study material but i would say that I m rather moodless to do so... 

Tired of the usual routine of things...Studies, work...

I missing so many things - 1 of it ... blogging... 

Neways... wish me the best for my exam next week