The clock ticks by... seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks & months...
Every passing rhythm fades into sub-consciousness, I've lost count the last I've been back, and now insomnia strikes again... oh well "hello" it greets, of course not the most welcomed guest...
Going through a really rough patch right now... trying to put up a front appearing calm & not affected but deep down its filled with grief & uncertainty... As off now, its really sustaining on self comfort & pumping in positive stuff through my head - blocking every emotion that breaks me down....
An honest evaluation, looking deep down having moments of solidarity - shows things really arent the best... I hope I wont run out of willpower & self denial... its painful since there is so much I would have done differently but I know I couldnt ...
I hope I wont breakdown since life is getting so heavy & I dont know how I can take it...
