Stage of Limbo at this current point of time... questioning every steps leading to this direction... reminiscing the path travelled coming to this path, journeyed a whole 22 years going towards the 23rd. An experience unique & known mostly to myself... which flash of happiness, glimpses of surprises...milestones of life....
Arriving at one of the many crossroads taken, 4 directions as options in general but endless possibilities leading for this crossroad. Wondering back, which all the questions which almost all if not all start with the phrase - "What ifs..."
Well, they say every man is accountable for his own decisions, rewards or consequences on shall pay for that he has done. Knowing right & wrong is judged based on what you know, knowledge & wisdom as they put it... wanting to go ahead with the action & taking the selfish course, which though sinful provides a temporary state of enjoyment.
I think to myself & I am lost... I look at my left to the right and see ppl around me, who do i compare with... who do i want to me.... is that all? Should i be contented? Wanting more is human nature... and putting a goal keeps us focus, because we usually find satisfaction in achievements, beeming with that smile & glow from within. But hey, looking back... now what? what's next?
What ifs keeps playing my mind... like a broken track going on & on & on... its the open ended conclusion of "Inception"...it really troubles the mind i'm telling u if u really think deeply about it... I've been avoiding decisions for a very long time ... Deep down knowing that delaying will not help....
I say i need guidance but guidance reckons a willing heart to be want to take action. Cant I? Will I? Should I?
Darn... even writing doesnt ease the troubling mind....
What if...
