Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Saturday, October 15, 2011
16 Oct 2011 : 12:05AM
Picture this :
You are sitting in a dark room... there is a light bulk in the hanging in the middle of the ceiling, its yellow gives a weak glow...Its a woodern floor that you are stepping on... you look to the 4 walls, its empty, maybe theres some wordings written on it? Just maybe... but you cant be bother either way...
The window is wide open.. its a clear sky today... no stars, neither is there the familiar moonlight which provides a glimer of glow... You sit down on the couch in the middle of the room, your thoughts start to drift in mid air... You cant recall what you are thinking but it doest matter either ... Your heart's feeling heavy... maybe your're sad? But it doesnt matter...
It starts with the prick or maybe its more than that... its like, a kid who finds out that both his parents have meet in an accident and he's all alone... the closest ppl he has is now gone... gone is like that... Familiar faces, scents & voices.... they come back to you in so vivid that you believed that it was real...
There is a sound... like those that they play during a funeral? Like those that you hear when its accompanied with sobs & sighs....
This time it sounds like one of those songs from Coldplay maybe ? or Snow Petrol... and yes, its hard to explain...and yes, its tears that you feel, moists your eyes and steady forms a tear drop that drips past your cheeks... you feel the saltyness on your lips... it forms a steady line... meeting in the centre of the chin... I wish you were here to wipe it dry?
The music continues.... I think i recognized this song....
There's the instrument playing at the background...He's singing... He's saying something about being happy?
Most of what i remember, makes me sure... i should have stopped you from walking through the door...
One of the song froms - Snow Patrol - "Eyes Open"
- ColdPlay - "Yellow"
You are sitting in a dark room... there is a light bulk in the hanging in the middle of the ceiling, its yellow gives a weak glow...Its a woodern floor that you are stepping on... you look to the 4 walls, its empty, maybe theres some wordings written on it? Just maybe... but you cant be bother either way...
The window is wide open.. its a clear sky today... no stars, neither is there the familiar moonlight which provides a glimer of glow... You sit down on the couch in the middle of the room, your thoughts start to drift in mid air... You cant recall what you are thinking but it doest matter either ... Your heart's feeling heavy... maybe your're sad? But it doesnt matter...
It starts with the prick or maybe its more than that... its like, a kid who finds out that both his parents have meet in an accident and he's all alone... the closest ppl he has is now gone... gone is like that... Familiar faces, scents & voices.... they come back to you in so vivid that you believed that it was real...
There is a sound... like those that they play during a funeral? Like those that you hear when its accompanied with sobs & sighs....
This time it sounds like one of those songs from Coldplay maybe ? or Snow Petrol... and yes, its hard to explain...and yes, its tears that you feel, moists your eyes and steady forms a tear drop that drips past your cheeks... you feel the saltyness on your lips... it forms a steady line... meeting in the centre of the chin... I wish you were here to wipe it dry?
The music continues.... I think i recognized this song....
There's the instrument playing at the background...He's singing... He's saying something about being happy?
Most of what i remember, makes me sure... i should have stopped you from walking through the door...
One of the song froms - Snow Patrol - "Eyes Open"
- ColdPlay - "Yellow"
Monday, August 1, 2011
1st Aug 2011
Back to re-bloging just tonight as I'm currently in the right mood i guess?
More like thinking quite abit and abit confused... aint sure what im really thinking exactly...
Mainly decision i guess? Havent been a big fan of it... and basically I suck at it too, even in simply decisions like what to eat, when to do and a whole bunch of other stuff. It sometimes depresses me as i know its really a flaw that probably will be stuck with me for a quite a while (its character) after all...
Sometimes make a decision is hard because u tend to be consider for both party, thinking of the consequence, pro & cons of each decision etc... even putting oneself into the other person's shoe...*confused*
Some days i just i wished i had total freedom, free from everything... probably going like bag packing or something, daring new challenges, exploring what life has to offer...Life supposed to be enjoy but why is not everyone born equal? Why does some day is lived for the sake of survival? Why are some ppl born with the golden spoon and others born with the piles of misery ?
At this point, i should be grateful, which I am but no harm in ranting i guess. What I'm stating are just facts of life...I day dream, but after hitting the pillow and awakening the next day.. its constantly same shit different day :) Living to die another day...
Im thinking of changing a new job... but....( u guys know the drill rite? Uncertainty, pay, new environment, adaptation....)
Damn it, should just buy lottery & strike first price...lol...
I guess its just another random post.... sorry folks & gd nite !
More like thinking quite abit and abit confused... aint sure what im really thinking exactly...
Mainly decision i guess? Havent been a big fan of it... and basically I suck at it too, even in simply decisions like what to eat, when to do and a whole bunch of other stuff. It sometimes depresses me as i know its really a flaw that probably will be stuck with me for a quite a while (its character) after all...
Sometimes make a decision is hard because u tend to be consider for both party, thinking of the consequence, pro & cons of each decision etc... even putting oneself into the other person's shoe...*confused*
Some days i just i wished i had total freedom, free from everything... probably going like bag packing or something, daring new challenges, exploring what life has to offer...Life supposed to be enjoy but why is not everyone born equal? Why does some day is lived for the sake of survival? Why are some ppl born with the golden spoon and others born with the piles of misery ?
At this point, i should be grateful, which I am but no harm in ranting i guess. What I'm stating are just facts of life...I day dream, but after hitting the pillow and awakening the next day.. its constantly same shit different day :) Living to die another day...
Im thinking of changing a new job... but....( u guys know the drill rite? Uncertainty, pay, new environment, adaptation....)
Damn it, should just buy lottery & strike first price...lol...
I guess its just another random post.... sorry folks & gd nite !
Saturday, May 7, 2011
May 2011 - Some updates
Its been 2 months since last update? Kinna becoming a mini diary to life's happening these days eh? How have you all been?
*As if i have readers =p"
Been busy with work mainly these days... work is stressful, lots of things going on in the office. Some are directly related to work... more work, higher target & stuff... others would be relationships with ppl, as the dept grows bigger... new ppl join the company... personality tends to differ, conflicts arising arent new.... politics develop... its tiring...
And if you ask me, why stay... i actually dont have much of a choice frankly speaking... sometimes when one meets a crossroad in their life, its choices one have to make... alot of times it boils down to self over others, and logically if putting others before self... that leaves with no choice... so I am what I am now...
They say that whatever does not kill you makes you stronger... guess thats true with my life? Becoming somewhat complacement somehow... I need.... to adjust.... but what, i'm still figuring out... ok, so back to sales & my job... outright pushing from the 1st day of the month, 1st May 2011.... its gonna be a struggle right to the finishing line... probably till the end of 2011?! *only god knows...*
Study's easing up... probably my last sem soon...so thats kinna good news...and yes,finally after 3 yrs.. hahah... then i might wanna focus in developing other skills giving more free time...
oh...btw, i think you shouldn't care too much about how others look at u...sometimes its more important to get acceptance within urself before looking at how others view you... make sure that ur comfortable with something, and not suite others when its a opinionated viewpoint... and yes, i know it would be good if we could meet everyday.. but sometimes... hard mah...
*pls don't get angry :).. u know i sayang u right?? ...*
So when u get into ur internship, its a start of another journey..its not as bad as you think.. so if case if you need share anything or need support.. im here de wor....
...... sorry folks, as I said.. this is becoming more like my personal mini diary which i pour my thoughts unfiltered in here... :))
Sorry if you find it boring... til then, good nite ppl
*As if i have readers =p"
Been busy with work mainly these days... work is stressful, lots of things going on in the office. Some are directly related to work... more work, higher target & stuff... others would be relationships with ppl, as the dept grows bigger... new ppl join the company... personality tends to differ, conflicts arising arent new.... politics develop... its tiring...
And if you ask me, why stay... i actually dont have much of a choice frankly speaking... sometimes when one meets a crossroad in their life, its choices one have to make... alot of times it boils down to self over others, and logically if putting others before self... that leaves with no choice... so I am what I am now...
They say that whatever does not kill you makes you stronger... guess thats true with my life? Becoming somewhat complacement somehow... I need.... to adjust.... but what, i'm still figuring out... ok, so back to sales & my job... outright pushing from the 1st day of the month, 1st May 2011.... its gonna be a struggle right to the finishing line... probably till the end of 2011?! *only god knows...*
Study's easing up... probably my last sem soon...so thats kinna good news...and yes,finally after 3 yrs.. hahah... then i might wanna focus in developing other skills giving more free time...
oh...btw, i think you shouldn't care too much about how others look at u...sometimes its more important to get acceptance within urself before looking at how others view you... make sure that ur comfortable with something, and not suite others when its a opinionated viewpoint... and yes, i know it would be good if we could meet everyday.. but sometimes... hard mah...
*pls don't get angry :).. u know i sayang u right?? ...*
So when u get into ur internship, its a start of another journey..its not as bad as you think.. so if case if you need share anything or need support.. im here de wor....
...... sorry folks, as I said.. this is becoming more like my personal mini diary which i pour my thoughts unfiltered in here... :))
Sorry if you find it boring... til then, good nite ppl
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
...
I'm tired of this routine...
Working without pleasure... just to hit numbers... so that nobody starves...
Going to classes ... just to get attendance marks... so that I can graduate faster...
I need a break...
Working without pleasure... just to hit numbers... so that nobody starves...
Going to classes ... just to get attendance marks... so that I can graduate faster...
I need a break...
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Its a new year
Its so fast & already first month past of the year 2011.
Resolutions, hopes, goals & dreams all coming in place for some people. Daring to dream big & start fresh perhaps for others...for me, nothing much for resolution, wasnt really a big fan of them cuz unless u have really strong willpower & determination, very likely half of those things on the resolution list end up staying thr for the next couple of years :)
A direction set is what i have in place. Its working towards stability in all aspects, if thats not too much to ask for... career, wealth, relationships & health. (Pretty common). Had a hunch that this was gonna be a tough year, was correct about that :) Last month, January was an interesting month... or rather exciting 1.
Thankful that could hit my sales target which was skyhigh. And that goes without saying that I grateful for the support given by my dear :):). Last month was our 2 years... time flies doesnt it and wasnt really that spectacular celebration or what so ever. For those who know me, romantic will never be a word to describe me, anyhow, doesnt mean i cant try... haha...
So well, after consulting half of the people i know on what to get... finally just decided to go window shopping. Saw this cup that had a picture of a cute girl with short hair that fits exactly ... so i got that plus some Pachi chocs to fill it up :) Hope that she likes it... and sorry again, i never put pictures on my blog... which makes reading kind of dull.. sorry ya..
Was good to be together as a couple and many more to come... CNY is also around the corner... lots of ppl busy and all but i think CNY is alot more quieter than what it used to be... anyhow, lets reserve thoughts thoughts till another day cuz writing it here will be another long story to tell ...
OK folks.. thats all for now & c ya :)
Resolutions, hopes, goals & dreams all coming in place for some people. Daring to dream big & start fresh perhaps for others...for me, nothing much for resolution, wasnt really a big fan of them cuz unless u have really strong willpower & determination, very likely half of those things on the resolution list end up staying thr for the next couple of years :)
A direction set is what i have in place. Its working towards stability in all aspects, if thats not too much to ask for... career, wealth, relationships & health. (Pretty common). Had a hunch that this was gonna be a tough year, was correct about that :) Last month, January was an interesting month... or rather exciting 1.
Thankful that could hit my sales target which was skyhigh. And that goes without saying that I grateful for the support given by my dear :):). Last month was our 2 years... time flies doesnt it and wasnt really that spectacular celebration or what so ever. For those who know me, romantic will never be a word to describe me, anyhow, doesnt mean i cant try... haha...
So well, after consulting half of the people i know on what to get... finally just decided to go window shopping. Saw this cup that had a picture of a cute girl with short hair that fits exactly ... so i got that plus some Pachi chocs to fill it up :) Hope that she likes it... and sorry again, i never put pictures on my blog... which makes reading kind of dull.. sorry ya..
Was good to be together as a couple and many more to come... CNY is also around the corner... lots of ppl busy and all but i think CNY is alot more quieter than what it used to be... anyhow, lets reserve thoughts thoughts till another day cuz writing it here will be another long story to tell ...
OK folks.. thats all for now & c ya :)
Sunday, January 9, 2011
In reply to a frenz blog
Hello everyone, its already 2011, brand new year with the last year passing by so quickly...
Been lazy in updating this blog for quite a while, anyway, was going through a fren blog who you might say is pretty famous...you might know who I am referring to if i were to mentioned names. Anyhow, after reading the blogpost, it gave me some things to think about and reflect... was tempting to put in a comment at the end of the blogpost but after much consideration I not no...reasons reserved.
But what I liked to put forth and perhaps place it as an encouragement to those who get it, and for those who think you don like the way I'm say, feel free to click on the top right x button :).
Everybody is entitled to his opinion. You cant please everyone, thats a fact. And because every single thing or at least most things are opinionated, why do bother even caring about what others say or really think. Unless perhaps if its somebody close to us or person saying that which is meant to be constructive.
Of course, this comes without saying that everything is easier than done. Mostly unbringing & life experiences through a slow journey shapes this. Thats very true for me at least. Somedays I don give a damn to what others say and think... till the point that it gets into the nerves of ppl who sincerely care... (Im stubborn :D) Taking this opportunity to apologize to those who know me personally & relate to it... I m trying to change...
I personally thing u have prefer strong character & u can choose to apply it to things you genuinely do not want to care. And seriously, its not really some big deal that you cant handle. Probably one of those ranting moments that we hit the rock bottom in the up & down curves of life. But pretty sure that for whatever that comes down, will go up again... plus probably tonnes of encouragement from ur supporters.
If it helps, take a break, go out with frenz and chill, enjoy life and continue back rejuvenated.
** As for me, Im lazy to update my personal life here :) Perhaps when i have mood ...
*** 26 Jan is the anniversary... tell me what to get for you? =p
Been lazy in updating this blog for quite a while, anyway, was going through a fren blog who you might say is pretty famous...you might know who I am referring to if i were to mentioned names. Anyhow, after reading the blogpost, it gave me some things to think about and reflect... was tempting to put in a comment at the end of the blogpost but after much consideration I not no...reasons reserved.
But what I liked to put forth and perhaps place it as an encouragement to those who get it, and for those who think you don like the way I'm say, feel free to click on the top right x button :).
Everybody is entitled to his opinion. You cant please everyone, thats a fact. And because every single thing or at least most things are opinionated, why do bother even caring about what others say or really think. Unless perhaps if its somebody close to us or person saying that which is meant to be constructive.
Of course, this comes without saying that everything is easier than done. Mostly unbringing & life experiences through a slow journey shapes this. Thats very true for me at least. Somedays I don give a damn to what others say and think... till the point that it gets into the nerves of ppl who sincerely care... (Im stubborn :D) Taking this opportunity to apologize to those who know me personally & relate to it... I m trying to change...
I personally thing u have prefer strong character & u can choose to apply it to things you genuinely do not want to care. And seriously, its not really some big deal that you cant handle. Probably one of those ranting moments that we hit the rock bottom in the up & down curves of life. But pretty sure that for whatever that comes down, will go up again... plus probably tonnes of encouragement from ur supporters.
If it helps, take a break, go out with frenz and chill, enjoy life and continue back rejuvenated.
** As for me, Im lazy to update my personal life here :) Perhaps when i have mood ...
*** 26 Jan is the anniversary... tell me what to get for you? =p
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