Second chance

Everyone deserves a second chance, they say...

Probably so... there is where forgiveness comes in?
Keeping the negativity aside, look to the future... nobody can change the past...
Focus on the sincerity & positive side, it'll make forgiving alot easier...

And you never know... probably even forgetting? (Probably not... haha...)

However, not all endings are endings we expect... never know mayb e there is a double climax? just went you thought ... think again... Anyways, if all fails.... then I guess it'll be entirely to the individual...
How long can a leaky heart last? No matter how spacious & un-calculative a person might seem or be...I guess there is a limit... and ultimately the breaking point...

The question is : Is that the BREAKING POINT? 

Good nitez folks !!

Hope to cope with a betrayal

Everyday, we see shit happens & couples get together. Straight forwardly, there could be only 2 kind of results... happy ever after or just break up / divorced.

Why do you think the music industry is doing so well in getting their albums selling so well.. Thats cause emotional human beings... go through this cycle over & over again.... and rarely learn :)

Here is an article that i read, found it really helpful & practical...

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   Let yourself become emotional, and then let it go. Cry if that is all you want to do. Get the feeling of hurt and anger out of your system. It is important for you to release negative emotions if you want to cope with betrayal. But don't prolong the agony and allow the mourning period to consume you. Get it out of your system and move on.
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   Set some goals for yourself. Write down all the things that you want to do in your life and accomplish, and start working on making them happen. If there is a career path you wish to pursue, start working toward that. By doing this, you are refocusing your mind on to something that is more important than the betrayal. Surviving a betrayal means setting your mind on building a better life and future.
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   Find ways to enhance your personal development. Begin an exercise regimen that will not only keep you healthy and fit, it will provide you with an outlet to dispel any negative feelings that surface periodically. Take up a new hobby like ballroom dancing, hunting or hiking. The idea is to find yourself again, build confidence and recognize that a bad situation like a betrayal can lead to good.
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   Cope with betrayal by finding motivation in inspirational and empowerment books and CDs. Also, spend your time with positive people. If you surround yourself with motivational outlets, then you will be more excited about life; you will be more inclined to put your negative experience behind you and be optimistic about the future.
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   Understand that the process of dealing with a betrayal is not an easy one to undertake. There will be moments in which you will relapse, but that does not mean that you are failing. Whenever you do feel distressed, turn to a motivational resource, specifically a friend who likes to listen first and then pull you out of your rut. Don't let these moments of weakness consume you, however. They can become emotionally draining for both you and the friend who is there to support you.

Credits : http://www.wikihow.com/Deal-With-Betrayal

To those out there who needs this ... let this be something to gleen & stay strong...

Though words will never be able to describe the terrible feeling entirely 

I'm Dan.

Tragedies : Its a brutal awakening

Imagine yourself in deep slumber, engaged in dreamz that seemed so real... only to be jolted up by a startling loud noise of the thunder...

Awakening from half consciousness to realize how stormy the condition was... 

Yesterday night... was a really bad nightmare... and i wished i could turn back the clock & redo things... 

What happened ytd made me realize that life is really a gift and waking up each day still breathing is something I personally take for granted....

That is until what happened ytd night... I realized how elusive things can be... Its literately like a magic show doing the disappearing act... the only thing is this is for real...and hey, yes i did pinch myself after the 'tragedy'... hoping & yes dreaming.... dreaming for too long...

Im very grateful to GOD for keeping me alive for another day... I take it as a lesson... yes, I need to wake up before its too late... Whats the point of not realizing that it just takes a fraction of a second to undo whatever that was build through the whole lifetime...

A vow has been made & I do intend to keep it... I must...
Time to change perspective... Time to wake up & ride the storm...
Time to appreciate ...
It might be late but never too late to try?

Good night folks... Hope I'll be sleep through the night without having the re-occurring nightmare...

Fuck off

Fuck off... im stronger than that...
Solitude arent that big deal....
Emotions feeds life's flame...
Amongst those on top... anger, jealousy, hatred, passion, love :)
Im  more of the anger & hatred person... so dont mess around ...
Cuz if you're on your the list.. its Kamikaze...

Realizations

Realization sometimes just comes at the most interesting places... so when i was doing my business... I can to a realization & concluded that a best way moving on is to just face the problem.

Midst my unhappiness & dissatisfaction about my job & other things...while trying to find the faster & yet wanting the perfect solution, I realized - perhaps I could change things around. I had the power to do certain things, I had the power to not react in a negative manner, I had the choice to slowly learn to realize that life still goes on without us noticing... So, why not make do of what I have currently & push my limits.

Stepping out of my comfort zone is one of the first few steps of the cheese move. Acceptance will be a process that have to come along. This I think is tough especially when its a second nature to a fighter. Some battles are not worth the fight, and bearing up with the circumstances is often harder but likely to be worth while.

I was going through an article on whether changing a job is so much of a calculated risk, and the article made a point that did hit me : Its which job that gives you the best satisfaction and happiness. Career advancement & extra $$ does not equals increase in happiness. Happiness is elusive. This I can testify, which the striving after wind is un-ending.

With much anticipation I am looking forward to a slow but gradual changes & hopefully more happiness in life ? :)

So many things that I want to do but yet so little resources...
Not enough time, not enough capital, not enough energy, cant be at multiple places in a single opportunity...

How good if I had either one which was unlimited...
How good if I had the guts to just dump all, step out of my comfort zone & pursue what I think will make it big...

Anxieties of life ... oh well, good nite folks

Interview session.... got me thinking...

This is interesting... a new layout to the blogspot that seems  very different from the previous that i once knew...perhaps its cuz I haven't been writing for quite abit which is cuz life is super super busy... anyways, nice surprise with the change & in fact i like it... easier to use, clean & straight forward... nice...

OK... so about a week back I got a call while sitting in the office. The number was an unknown one, which i get all the time cuz I give my numbers to my clients. Alright, so i picked the le call & a hunter hunter tells me that he's got a job for me. Abit skeptical on what the employer could offer, i listened on...

So the usual stuff goes by... update resume & send it through.... employer does first round of phone interview screening & hullah....

One week later, I am parking my car at 1Mont Kiara... which is where Im suppose have the interview appt. First i meet the HR & then comes the Country Manager... it was a lengthy discussion where i spent 2 hours of my life : Listening, Asking.... back and forth. Well, if you're wondering how exactly did the interview go? I would have told u it was alright but the discussion that transpired during the interview left me with couple of thoughts :

1. Is age really that much of a concern to an employer?
2. Whats the correct way to attend an interview? As in mindset & attitude....
3. What do I really want to be doing?
4. Which path do i want to head in career advancement?

Well, during the last part of the interview session - I was quite agitated for some reason. The 'country manager' who I thought was ok, trying his part to be not overly formal did pretty ok at first. But coming to point 1, i felt belittled that age was bought into question. Shouldnt experience & track record be the first consideration & not age... because in the end the age would just be a number. Having said that a 30 year old might not be as mature as a 18 year old, just because somebody might be older... they are a wiser cuz its the maturity that counts.

At this point of time, a week has past & I am waiting to see what they have to say and what they have to offer. Either way, there is a plus & minus point about job which if they do offer me... it would be a tough call to make. There is where 3 & 4 comes into the background... Making a decision which potentially steer life's direction accordingly. Till then, fingers cross + just doing the routine "Same Shit Different Day" job.

Good nite peeps !! Just ranting & penning it down in writing...