In reply to a frenz blog

Hello everyone, its already 2011, brand new year with the last year passing by so quickly...

Been lazy in updating this blog for quite a while, anyway, was going through a fren blog who you might say is pretty famous...you might know who I am referring to if i were to mentioned names. Anyhow, after reading the blogpost, it gave me some things to think about and reflect... was tempting to put in a comment at the end of the blogpost but after much consideration I not no...reasons reserved.

But what I liked to put forth and perhaps place it as an encouragement to those who get it, and for those who think you don like the way I'm say, feel free to click on the top right x button :).

Everybody is entitled to his opinion. You cant please everyone, thats a fact. And because every single thing or at least most things are opinionated, why do bother even caring about what others say or really think. Unless perhaps if its somebody close to us or person saying that which is meant to be constructive.

Of course, this comes without saying that everything is easier than done. Mostly unbringing & life experiences through a slow journey shapes this. Thats very true for me at least. Somedays I don give a damn to what others say and think... till the point that it gets into the nerves of ppl who sincerely care... (Im stubborn :D) Taking this opportunity to apologize to those who know me personally & relate to it... I m trying to change...

I personally thing u have prefer strong character & u can choose to apply it to things you genuinely do not want to care. And seriously, its not really some big deal that you cant handle. Probably one of those ranting moments that we hit the rock bottom in the up & down curves of life. But pretty sure that for whatever that comes down, will go up again... plus probably tonnes of encouragement from ur supporters.

If it helps, take a break, go out with frenz and chill, enjoy life and continue back rejuvenated.

** As for me, Im lazy to update my personal life here :) Perhaps when i have mood ...

*** 26 Jan is the anniversary... tell me what to get for you? =p

Just Thinking Aloud

Serenity & boredom are just a fine line apart...

Life goes in a circle, meaningless without a purpose...

Reality is elusive, the moment you think u've grasp it, it slips away;
(Illustrated by catching of the rainbow with one hands... )

Geniuses probably have more problems than a layman... cuz he thinks too much...

A true fren, a companion is all it takes to withstand a world of troubles

Mankind's history is full of regrets, yet we still repeat it over & over...

Forgiving others is not easy; holding is grudge caused bitterness



p/s : Im not being emo... :) Will update more later, when i think of more...

Nov 2010...

Part 1 :

Thinking of changing car...after what happened last week...

Purely coincidence that all these bad stuff coming in a streak or just as what others call 'bad luck' ? Whats gonna be done next? Bath with "Holy water / Flower water"? lol...

Hard to get past the accident that's so damn vivid in my mind... till now, probably able to do an instant replay mentally anytime i wish too... of course, i hope i get past this grey event.. but its gotta take a while to do that + not sure whether there would be phobia after that...

My colleague say... "Think you better not drive after this... dangerous la u..."

I was like.... "Hmmmmm....(long pause)"

Alright... thats for least of worry, worrying part is the process to get the car fix. bloody agents / callman who make making $$$ first priority... don't even know exactly whats the progress like till this day... driving me impatient & agitated with this waiting...

Whats worse is how to deal & live without my ride... how gonna make trips to see her... how to get around .... gosh... back to public transport..

Its a public holiday & m glad that we had our date today :)... just loved it.. the sight of seeing ya...

Thats all for now signing off with some quick updates that are not arranged in an orderly fashion :)

G Nite PPl !!

... ok, this is a continuation from earlier post, abit more...

Here comes Part 2 :

Its like the Harry Potter that i just watched, earlier part, part 1 was the hanging part.. and this is gonna be the 'climax' :) Even though im kinna lazy to update fully and cant recall everything at 1 go.

Since somebody has DEMANDED then no choice eh.. thats what happens when ur in wanna make that someone who u care alot... there are days that what u think and what u want dont matter that much after all if that person is not that to share it with u... some days no matter how shitty ur day is, that someone's smile will be all that matters... No words needed to be uttered.. and ur day arent that bad after all cuz at least u know there's always gonna be that support when ur needing it...

Coming back to my deliberation on changing car...in case, you already know, its cuz i've got involved in another accident... 2nd time this yr, in a span of 2 months plus? Sigh... i think i am aware what actually went wrong & perhaps it could be avoided? Anyway, its past... no point looking back..

Some since its an accident, did lots of research about procedures on how to go about doing the claiming & stuff... read through lots of webpages, consulted lots of ppl who had hell alot of differing opinions and mostly clueless cuz not been in that situation before.. and seriously i wasnt even bothered to find out more about this earlier on cuz it never occured to me that this would really happen... so to all you folks out there who are driving, my advice is get to know ur stuff well.. know what to do when these things happened... nobody wants to get his car crash & get tolled off, but shit happens at times... and sooner than u except it, its already there ...

Ok.. so I'm gonna be without my car for like at least 3-4 weeks, could be longer if those idiots delay the process.. thinking of it makes me ticked off... but nothing much i can really do... and yeah, i was thinking bout corruptions ... (perhaps totally random) but cuz of corruption... every party that is involved after a crash / accident is trying to suck out as much profit from each other... business is always about exploitation i agree... and starting from the callman, toll truck guy, mechanic, police, JPJ, adjustors & whoever that is guilty in this...without corruption, nothing goes smoothly... they wont even give a damn... with corruption comes another set of problem though... but in the end.. all i hope for is getting back my car in its original state before the accident ASAP.

This wait is killing me... gonna have to miss seeing her and public transports arent that ideal here either (probably already telling me not to go thr...), knowing its gonna tough on both of us... do hope that can really bear up... its always a case that is easier said than done... (applies for most of things in life... )...

But wait for it k? I m sure things gonna be quick... exams around the corner as well.. so hopefullly this gonna help me distract & focus on the more important things... with this distraction, keep time passing faster and cut all the agony of expectations & waiting...

So far thats all for now :).. brain cells arent functioning so well.. *Winks*

Changes : Am I Ready?

A fren once said : "The hardest part of ending is to start again... and whr do we begin? "

Technically its not like the end, its something more minor changes... in general its inevitable, thats life... anyway, what am i worried about? its gotta be related to work as usual, nothing much can be done to take the mind from it when at least 8 hours of life revolves around that...

Small changes : Different seating arrangement

Big changes : Uncertainty of the future (general...)

So lets talk about seating arrangements, I'll be moving to a new seating + SMALLER table... thinking whr the hell to fit all my stuffs... the new table gotta be at least half the size my current 1... anyway, gonna miss my usual colleagues who are happenings ones...

Bigger picture, its already end of October,2 months from now.. its a brand new ... everyone talking about resolutions & all that crap... ok, to me, it wont really work unless ur really discipline in doing it...

In regards to work, target gonna increase for sure, what accounts stay, what accounts given to charity, thats yet to be seen.. but one things for sure... wont be that great... KPIs.... bla bla bla...

Waiting for someone to smack me from the back... then that would be the green light for "gerila attack" :D... bring it on ppl !!

Just a short update

Just a short update on whats going on right now...

So as i mentioned earlier "After a storm is a rainbow", now it seems that the storm has kinna subsided slightly and over the horizon is the rainbow =p.. just a glimpse of it...

Its like light at the end of the dark tunnel (ok.. that was un-neccessary).. :)

So i fixed my car at this "Mudgut" guy who does "Ketuk Kereta", and its in KLANG, it was awesome job done, price was reasonable, unlike the guys who i went to asked back in kl... which were totally unhelpful and asked me to change the whole bumper anyway... alright, so much for the ranting...many thanks to SOMEONE's recommendation, that part is Kaotim... The phrase of "Belum cuba belum tau... sudah cuba hari hari mau" = D, (Pls don apply this out of context)

Motorcycle guys that didnt get himself killed gave me a call, wanted to settle the unsettled... so still in discussion process but at least some progress..

And this month target, thank goodness hit. That I must say is with some luck & i m grateful for it.

Okie... this is dedicated to you know who went ur reading : "Somethings are out of my control k? But I ll always try to make sure that things will be better.. at least I try :)... so don get upset ya... and have more confidence in urself.. In you i beliveve !'

Thats all for today folks :) Goodnite.

When the going gets tough, the tough get going...

I realized... somedays...bad things just happen altogether... they don't come in a orderly queque....and thats bad... and it just get worse at times...

Not to say that I m totally going through like a bad patch of life... its call the thing that happen in life... nobody wants these things.. but we know at some point or another.. it will just be there to bug ur life.. and you have to get over with it..

Thats my plan... hopefully its gonna be better and not for the worse =p... well, its a mixture with good things along the way as well.. which is a consolation i presume...

And i thought fit & timely that i start to do some self improvement myself, trying to improve skills, knowledge and understanding... else, i ll be a left out.. already feeling the effect...

Problem is : Where to start and how to start ? lol...

I m tough ya.. and i m getting going...its just the beginning...

She.... was what i was thinking about...

That day i was thinking... thinking about her... I noticed that she has changed... And something about myself too... that i ve changed.. slightly... for her...

I've always like the way she smiles, very sweet smile... her grin makes my heart warm... perhaps she didnt realize that she is beautiful... with a pair of very big eyes... double eye lids... and cheeks that i like to peek on the sides every now and then...

I m thinking this is a mixed feeling cuz I miss her... want to be seeing her right now... and when i realized this feeling is subconscious... i feel that i love her more & more day by day... that i don know how or what would happen if she really left...

I mean we cant tell the future as I as say to her... but its something that i am indeed afraid to think about.. and hope will not happen... i m touch by her... that she even though being very stubborn at times, i feel that she is also trying to make herself a better gf... but i don think perfection :):)... cuz she's perfect... i feel her sincereness.. it touches my heart...

People look at appearance ... perhaps that is through to everybody...but for me...it doesnt matter if u don go on diet :) Really, as long as u don go hungry.. thats all fine with me... and seriously our 'fren' who went on diet is too thin... and i don know how to react to it either....

Erm... this post is kinna spontaneous... but it does kinna sum up what i feel right now towards u...ILU :):)