Main stream media = basket full of lies...

Main stream media = basket full of lies...

Some days, i seek for more information through means of surfing on the internet... The more crap you get each day... I am implying matters regarding this "Boleh-land"... Every aspect that you look into, you can only see things getting from bad to worse... You do the comparison urself.. looking at pure facts & seeing it with an open mind.

One might argue... we have quite a great deal of development... KLCC, Sepang... isn't that enough of waste of taxpayers $$... (And yeah, I'm paying tax... i can rant all i want...)

Every topic that you might look into just cause anger & rage to boil... Ignorant people, selfish inclinations, so full of themselves... changes has to occur.. and it arent just about the ppl... its about the thinking, upbringing, attitudes.. boils down to the core value of us as the people in this land...

Just to pen down ... part of this dis-factory feeling that keeps me fill with anger on this cool Sunday nite (00.00 AM)

Its raining... heavy... storm seems to be brewing... its the same with ppl here... 13 May ??? ...

Good nite ppl !!

I think i have the lameness of the highest level

Just a short updated cuz I want to update :)

I m lame & in case my readers don't already know.. i m lame

Smile & Wave Boys... :)

Updating my blog again... this month like abit active eh =p... seems like updating a diary actually.. but its ok la...

Things were much more better today, can smile more :)...Glad SOMEBODY more happy... happiness is contagious... but works boring, seemed abit lost at work though.... not to mention that today was gonna be awesome morning to stay snuggled in bed... it rained again !! 2 days in a row.. and in the morning...

Sales is moving ... which is surprising.. hopefully it stays that way... else the pressure will be on me... different kind of pressure from studying in school and in college... datelines & exams... those were killers.

So, managed to contact this Creative Director which happened to be attached with RAPP... planning to fix an appointment to interview her, get some biodata kinna thingy... For ur assignment babe :)... Have a feeling it'll turn out well... but her profile in linkedin is pretty intimidating... but i think we're all good, just need to find the right time to fit her schedule...

So ya... overall mood today is quite good :)...

"Just smile & wave boys..." - Skipper the Penguin, Madagascar...

An update

Its 10.30 pm... I had some emotions or maybe some thoughts.. suddenly felt like blogging a little.. just a little...

Today's a Monday... didnt get out to a good start.. was late for work... mood while reaching the office wasnt ideal... but didnt last so long...

Felt kinna relieve that I had some guidance and advice after speaking to some ppl about what happened 2 days ago... i realized its not a big deal.. but obviously when its the first time you go through stuff like that...i guess its natural..

So i figured out how to kinna put this issue to an end.. gave the guy a call and further negotiations to get down to business, talking about the costing ... hopefully it wont cost me a bomb... getting some stuff planned in my mind.. what to do ... who to ask... when to take leave... bla bla bla...

This is relatively settled... but i have something else troubling me... feeling that its becoming a distance... but frankly speaking, I really wounldnt take it to heart... hugz would be good now i assumed... a real warm & big hugz...

Oh well, and another thing... i think i m a nerd...but i haven been reading much lately, gotta do something about it... ( this is random... but thats how i feel ), perhaps its just a confused feeling within me that shows itself in the form of this confuse state of thoughts...

Not sure when will be the next update.. but that's all for now I guess...

Good nite peeps !!

I'm shaken-ed !!

Its 2.00 am... just reached home, washed up & took my shower...

I m feeling kinna weird... shaken by what actually happened a few hours ago...seems like so many things happen within just less than such a short span...

This is the first time I got involved in a such a thing... and definately hope that it will be the last...anyway, if ur still wondering what's that first time thingy... well, its cuz i just got involved in a traffic accident...i mean those incidents like knocking the pole, hitting the curve of the road while driving... those are no big deal... am such everyone wont be able to avoid those stuff...

This accident that i got involved wasn't such a big issue ... [nobody died :( ]... OK so, this happened after dinner... all was fine until after dinner... and it was 9 pm the day before... i think....

Everything happened in just a split second... until now it still puzzles me... i mean... i think nobody was really right... or for that matter wrong... it was a head on collision, the road condition sucked to the max... pot holes all over made you think that you were probably on the surface of the moon... ok... and err no street lights... Worse thing is that I wasnt even sure if the 'victim' who i knocked was having his headlights on... anyway, he was riding...just in case you were curios...

So...every 5 min, i have this flash forward images of how these things occurred and yet i cant seem to be able to recall what exactly happened... and ya.. when the crash occurred...I began to panic... for a moment i thought this must be a dream... but then i realized its for real, the guy is laying on the ground... To the clinic we went, followed by the police station...

Anyway... its a really messed up experience... really disturbing actually...

Believe it or not... I was just thinking to myself the very same day that I am very lucky not to be involved in an accident so far...was thinking of what a fren told me: "During ur first 2 yrs of driving... Its ur most vulnerable period...chances are u're deemed to get involved in 1.. but just make sure you don get involved in a real serious 1..." These words still kicking me from within... few hours passed from now...

Actually its not just the accident itself that got me this mixed feelings within me...how do i put it... so many things going on in my mind even i m confused... Here is 1 of it... I m not very sure if I did the right thing, as in how i settled the issue with the 'victim'...

Here's my logic : "Ok fine... he did suffer more damage... physically + motorcycle damage" "My damage is my car's gonna need fixing, I paid for his medical, lorry to get the motorcycle over to the police station.... now he wants me to pay for the cost of repair for his bike...(half of it - is that suppose to be a consolation? ) and not even sure if I will get the 300 bucks police summon...

I am just writing it here cuz I really feel like speaking to someone.... so much in my mind right now... really have to let some go.... I m thinking a real holiday to keep my mind from everything will be nice... really awesome...

I also need to apologize to you... cuz you know i m hard headed when it comes to making decision, even though its not really the wisest of choices but often have my own 'reasons' or excuses as you may put it to justify myself...but rightfully, i am not sure if i'm right or wrong...i know and feel ur concern... its just that everything happening, happens real quick & i.... i just don't know...

I guess after writing abit here.. I am slightly relieved...

Hope i can sleep ... and i think i already have a phobia...

Eminem - Love The Way You Lie ft. Rihanna

This song been playing on & on in my mind... Just keeps stuck thr...


Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down
Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Here is the MTV :


Enjoy... :)

Some Updates

This is just to reaffirm that life is never fair..

Never was, is not right now & will never be...

I am hoping that in the next 10 yrs to come... I will have to force to eat back my words... but anyhow... work is piling up...

Not all that bad, depending on which angle you look at it... more target = more stress = slightly more income, thats provided you hit your target..

Everyone is a fresh page, comes 1st of the month... sales target set, gotta start from zero right again... And it aren't refreshing either with latest turn off events which sees office politics (A to Zee.... needless for me to elaborate...)

College is its same told story... classes, course works, exams... soaking up all the stress & feeling it.. Assignments due in few days time & i just barely started (case of de-generative brain cells or pure laziness? :D)

Uttering the statement as above does not exactly mean that I am really disgruntle or unhappy... but i wonder at times... "what if... "

So many 'ifs' and some many 'buts'.... but it still comes down to this... Like it or not... things don't change if u don't try to change em'...