Its 2.00 am... just reached home, washed up & took my shower...
I m feeling kinna weird... shaken by what actually happened a few hours ago...seems like so many things happen within just less than such a short span...
This is the first time I got involved in a such a thing... and definately hope that it will be the last...anyway, if ur still wondering what's that first time thingy... well, its cuz i just got involved in a traffic accident...i mean those incidents like knocking the pole, hitting the curve of the road while driving... those are no big deal... am such everyone wont be able to avoid those stuff...
This accident that i got involved wasn't such a big issue ... [nobody died :( ]... OK so, this happened after dinner... all was fine until after dinner... and it was 9 pm the day before... i think....
Everything happened in just a split second... until now it still puzzles me... i mean... i think nobody was really right... or for that matter wrong... it was a head on collision, the road condition sucked to the max... pot holes all over made you think that you were probably on the surface of the moon... ok... and err no street lights... Worse thing is that I wasnt even sure if the 'victim' who i knocked was having his headlights on... anyway, he was riding...just in case you were curios...
So...every 5 min, i have this flash forward images of how these things occurred and yet i cant seem to be able to recall what exactly happened... and ya.. when the crash occurred...I began to panic... for a moment i thought this must be a dream... but then i realized its for real, the guy is laying on the ground... To the clinic we went, followed by the police station...
Anyway... its a really messed up experience... really disturbing actually...
Believe it or not... I was just thinking to myself the very same day that I am very lucky not to be involved in an accident so far...was thinking of what a fren told me: "During ur first 2 yrs of driving... Its ur most vulnerable period...chances are u're deemed to get involved in 1.. but just make sure you don get involved in a real serious 1..." These words still kicking me from within... few hours passed from now...
Actually its not just the accident itself that got me this mixed feelings within me...how do i put it... so many things going on in my mind even i m confused... Here is 1 of it... I m not very sure if I did the right thing, as in how i settled the issue with the 'victim'...
Here's my logic : "Ok fine... he did suffer more damage... physically + motorcycle damage" "My damage is my car's gonna need fixing, I paid for his medical, lorry to get the motorcycle over to the police station.... now he wants me to pay for the cost of repair for his bike...(half of it - is that suppose to be a consolation? ) and not even sure if I will get the 300 bucks police summon...
I am just writing it here cuz I really feel like speaking to someone.... so much in my mind right now... really have to let some go.... I m thinking a real holiday to keep my mind from everything will be nice... really awesome...
I also need to apologize to you... cuz you know i m hard headed when it comes to making decision, even though its not really the wisest of choices but often have my own 'reasons' or excuses as you may put it to justify myself...but rightfully, i am not sure if i'm right or wrong...i know and feel ur concern... its just that everything happening, happens real quick & i.... i just don't know...
I guess after writing abit here.. I am slightly relieved...
Hope i can sleep ... and i think i already have a phobia...
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Eminem - Love The Way You Lie ft. Rihanna
This song been playing on & on in my mind... Just keeps stuck thr...
Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength
Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down
Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane
Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire
Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Here is the MTV :
Enjoy... :)
Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength
Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down
Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane
Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire
Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Here is the MTV :
Enjoy... :)
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Some Updates
This is just to reaffirm that life is never fair..
Never was, is not right now & will never be...
I am hoping that in the next 10 yrs to come... I will have to force to eat back my words... but anyhow... work is piling up...
Not all that bad, depending on which angle you look at it... more target = more stress = slightly more income, thats provided you hit your target..
Everyone is a fresh page, comes 1st of the month... sales target set, gotta start from zero right again... And it aren't refreshing either with latest turn off events which sees office politics (A to Zee.... needless for me to elaborate...)
College is its same told story... classes, course works, exams... soaking up all the stress & feeling it.. Assignments due in few days time & i just barely started (case of de-generative brain cells or pure laziness? :D)
Uttering the statement as above does not exactly mean that I am really disgruntle or unhappy... but i wonder at times... "what if... "
So many 'ifs' and some many 'buts'.... but it still comes down to this... Like it or not... things don't change if u don't try to change em'...
Never was, is not right now & will never be...
I am hoping that in the next 10 yrs to come... I will have to force to eat back my words... but anyhow... work is piling up...
Not all that bad, depending on which angle you look at it... more target = more stress = slightly more income, thats provided you hit your target..
Everyone is a fresh page, comes 1st of the month... sales target set, gotta start from zero right again... And it aren't refreshing either with latest turn off events which sees office politics (A to Zee.... needless for me to elaborate...)
College is its same told story... classes, course works, exams... soaking up all the stress & feeling it.. Assignments due in few days time & i just barely started (case of de-generative brain cells or pure laziness? :D)
Uttering the statement as above does not exactly mean that I am really disgruntle or unhappy... but i wonder at times... "what if... "
So many 'ifs' and some many 'buts'.... but it still comes down to this... Like it or not... things don't change if u don't try to change em'...
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Clearing my emails during the weekends..
Came across that I suppose my Malaysian frenz who get it :D
Enjoy!
British English vs. Malaysian English
Who says our English is teruk? Just read below - Ours is simple, short, concise, straight-to-the-point, effective etc.
WHEN GIVING A CUSTOMER BAD NEWS
Britons: I'm sorry, sir, but we don't seem to have the sweater you want in your size, but if you give me a moment, I can call the other outlets for you.
Malaysians: No stock..
RETURNING A CALL
Britons: Hello, this is John Smith. Did anyone call for me a few moments ago?
Malaysians: Hello, who call?
ASKING SOMEONE TO MAKE WAY
Britons: Excuse me, I would like to get by. Would you please make way?
Malaysians: S-kew me.
WHEN SOMEONE OFFERS TO PAY
Britons: Hey! Put your wallet away, this drink is on me.
Malaysians: No need lah.
WHEN ASKING FOR PERMISSION
Britons: Excuse me, but do you think it would be possible for me to enter through this door?
Malaysians: (pointing at the door) Can ah?
WHEN ENTERTAINING
Britons: Please make yourself right at home.
Malaysians: No need shy shy one lah!
WHEN DOUBTING SOMEONE
Britons: I don't recall you giving me the money.
Malaysians: Where got?
WHEN DECLINING AN OFFER
Britons: I would prefer not to do that, if you don't mind.
Malaysians: Don't want lah.
IN DISAGREEING ON A TOPIC OF DISCUSSION
Britons: Err...Tom, I have to stop you there. I understand where you're coming from, but I really have to disagree with what you said about the issue.
Malaysians: You mad ah?
WHEN ASKING SOMEONE TO LOWER THEIR VOICE.
Britons: Excuse me, but could you please lower your voice? I'm trying to concentrate over here.
Malaysians: Shut up lah!
WHEN ASKING SOMEONE IF HE/SHE KNOWS YOU..
Britons: Excuse me, but I noticed you staring at me for sometime. Do I know you?
Malaysians: See what, see what?
WHEN ASSESSING A TIGHT SITUATION.
Britons: We seem to be in a bit of a predicament at the moment..
Malaysians: Die lah!!
WHEN TRYING TO FIND OUT WHAT HAD HAPPENED
Britons: Will someone tell me what has just happened?
Malaysians: What happened ah? Why like that one lah?
WHEN SOMEONE DID SOMETHING WRONG
Britons: This isn't the way to do it. Here, let me show you.
Malaysians: Like that also don't know how to do!
WHEN ONE IS ANGRY
Britons: Would you mind not disturbing me?
Malaysians: Celaka you!
Came across that I suppose my Malaysian frenz who get it :D
Enjoy!
British English vs. Malaysian English
Who says our English is teruk? Just read below - Ours is simple, short, concise, straight-to-the-point, effective etc.
WHEN GIVING A CUSTOMER BAD NEWS
Britons: I'm sorry, sir, but we don't seem to have the sweater you want in your size, but if you give me a moment, I can call the other outlets for you.
Malaysians: No stock..
RETURNING A CALL
Britons: Hello, this is John Smith. Did anyone call for me a few moments ago?
Malaysians: Hello, who call?
ASKING SOMEONE TO MAKE WAY
Britons: Excuse me, I would like to get by. Would you please make way?
Malaysians: S-kew me.
WHEN SOMEONE OFFERS TO PAY
Britons: Hey! Put your wallet away, this drink is on me.
Malaysians: No need lah.
WHEN ASKING FOR PERMISSION
Britons: Excuse me, but do you think it would be possible for me to enter through this door?
Malaysians: (pointing at the door) Can ah?
WHEN ENTERTAINING
Britons: Please make yourself right at home.
Malaysians: No need shy shy one lah!
WHEN DOUBTING SOMEONE
Britons: I don't recall you giving me the money.
Malaysians: Where got?
WHEN DECLINING AN OFFER
Britons: I would prefer not to do that, if you don't mind.
Malaysians: Don't want lah.
IN DISAGREEING ON A TOPIC OF DISCUSSION
Britons: Err...Tom, I have to stop you there. I understand where you're coming from, but I really have to disagree with what you said about the issue.
Malaysians: You mad ah?
WHEN ASKING SOMEONE TO LOWER THEIR VOICE.
Britons: Excuse me, but could you please lower your voice? I'm trying to concentrate over here.
Malaysians: Shut up lah!
WHEN ASKING SOMEONE IF HE/SHE KNOWS YOU..
Britons: Excuse me, but I noticed you staring at me for sometime. Do I know you?
Malaysians: See what, see what?
WHEN ASSESSING A TIGHT SITUATION.
Britons: We seem to be in a bit of a predicament at the moment..
Malaysians: Die lah!!
WHEN TRYING TO FIND OUT WHAT HAD HAPPENED
Britons: Will someone tell me what has just happened?
Malaysians: What happened ah? Why like that one lah?
WHEN SOMEONE DID SOMETHING WRONG
Britons: This isn't the way to do it. Here, let me show you.
Malaysians: Like that also don't know how to do!
WHEN ONE IS ANGRY
Britons: Would you mind not disturbing me?
Malaysians: Celaka you!
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
$$$ ....
Obsessed with $$$ all day long these days...
Not sure if its a good or bad sign...
I wanna retired early... thats the plan... :) Dreaming you say?
Dreams are better imagined than those without anything to hope for...
Have the mood to update the blog earlier so this blog basically spills thoughts on my mind... But being lazy as usual... I decided that this will be all I spill today !!
Not sure if its a good or bad sign...
I wanna retired early... thats the plan... :) Dreaming you say?
Dreams are better imagined than those without anything to hope for...
Have the mood to update the blog earlier so this blog basically spills thoughts on my mind... But being lazy as usual... I decided that this will be all I spill today !!
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Its been a while....
Its been a while since i last update...
This is more like a shoutout... I've been busy... Too busy to notice ppl around... Too busy to be bothered... Too busy to notice...
Its like driving ur vehicle at 220km per hour on the highway during the nite.. without the streetlights....
Its a straight road... heels on the gas paddle....
You start slowing down... looking at the signboard... its like a journey that has gone all the way for a whole looooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnngggggggggggggg year...
Tiredness creeps in... boredom too accompanying... you look to you left & to ur right... you realized things changed..
Changed so much... so much... I look to myself in the rear mirror... i see ....
I see..... seeee....
And I look up the sky.... its a full moon... serenity indeed....
This is more like a shoutout... I've been busy... Too busy to notice ppl around... Too busy to be bothered... Too busy to notice...
Its like driving ur vehicle at 220km per hour on the highway during the nite.. without the streetlights....
Its a straight road... heels on the gas paddle....
You start slowing down... looking at the signboard... its like a journey that has gone all the way for a whole looooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnngggggggggggggg year...
Tiredness creeps in... boredom too accompanying... you look to you left & to ur right... you realized things changed..
Changed so much... so much... I look to myself in the rear mirror... i see ....
I see..... seeee....
And I look up the sky.... its a full moon... serenity indeed....
Thursday, November 19, 2009
November Updates
This post is also kind of random...
Actually don want what to update also...
This post, lazy to think in perfect english so chin chai taruk only...
Long time never blog liao... lost touch of what to write... but since got bit bit mood + due to popular demand, i ll update bit bit..
Starting from... work... same boring routine lor... from my earlier post, if you've been following... this yr is a relatively good yr la... but thats for this yr only...things pretty rossy for me la...
But then again, since this is good yr for me & not so good for everyone else within sales... my target confirm sure double fold at least... "die die die..." Till then, control also not in my hand right? So cannot be worried SO much... only can pray real hard that next yr economy improve to like 07, the good older days...
Okie, so much for wishful thinking for now... update u guys about studies. New semester started almost 5 weeks(or somewhere around there)... got so new faces, new friends... interesting ppl... not so interesting lecturers who are almost monotonous voice... feels like hypnosis therapy in class...
And lets not forget another lecturer who is new... who insists that everyone must know her profile... where she obtained her qualification, experiences & expertise ... bla bla bla... she had to make sure everybody knew her profile, she showed her profile at least 3 times in that class that very day. First time was when she came into class, 15 minutes later when another 2 students came in together class... and she just had do it another time 45 minutues later when a student came in...hmmmm... (thinking was that even necessary) neways who really cares where you studied!
To cut things short, her class are really.... ermm..., it just doesnt make me feel so comfortable... felt like dropping that subject tim but "boh bian" have to take it worrying that it would be quite a while before they would have this subject in other sems to come.
Ah ha... the kid who dreams big also suddenly becomes excited to start own business... planning begings... trying to source for suppliers... arrange logistic... where to sell produts.... been a great idea but slightly stuck for now.. :) hopefully this enthusiastic energy keeps the dream alive... but it might be half way through as lots of stuff that i try to do =p .... not a big big dream.. but something i feel would be a personal milestone achievement if really does work out...
Aiseh... late already, time to sleep... see you nxt month, if i m not too lazy to update this blog .. hehe... nitez ppl !!
Actually don want what to update also...
This post, lazy to think in perfect english so chin chai taruk only...
Long time never blog liao... lost touch of what to write... but since got bit bit mood + due to popular demand, i ll update bit bit..
Starting from... work... same boring routine lor... from my earlier post, if you've been following... this yr is a relatively good yr la... but thats for this yr only...things pretty rossy for me la...
But then again, since this is good yr for me & not so good for everyone else within sales... my target confirm sure double fold at least... "die die die..." Till then, control also not in my hand right? So cannot be worried SO much... only can pray real hard that next yr economy improve to like 07, the good older days...
Okie, so much for wishful thinking for now... update u guys about studies. New semester started almost 5 weeks(or somewhere around there)... got so new faces, new friends... interesting ppl... not so interesting lecturers who are almost monotonous voice... feels like hypnosis therapy in class...
And lets not forget another lecturer who is new... who insists that everyone must know her profile... where she obtained her qualification, experiences & expertise ... bla bla bla... she had to make sure everybody knew her profile, she showed her profile at least 3 times in that class that very day. First time was when she came into class, 15 minutes later when another 2 students came in together class... and she just had do it another time 45 minutues later when a student came in...hmmmm... (thinking was that even necessary) neways who really cares where you studied!
To cut things short, her class are really.... ermm..., it just doesnt make me feel so comfortable... felt like dropping that subject tim but "boh bian" have to take it worrying that it would be quite a while before they would have this subject in other sems to come.
Ah ha... the kid who dreams big also suddenly becomes excited to start own business... planning begings... trying to source for suppliers... arrange logistic... where to sell produts.... been a great idea but slightly stuck for now.. :) hopefully this enthusiastic energy keeps the dream alive... but it might be half way through as lots of stuff that i try to do =p .... not a big big dream.. but something i feel would be a personal milestone achievement if really does work out...
Aiseh... late already, time to sleep... see you nxt month, if i m not too lazy to update this blog .. hehe... nitez ppl !!
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