Bits & pieces of who I am...

2011-12-20T00:59:00.001+08:00

dot dot dot....

16 Oct 2011 : 12:05AM

2011-10-15T23:48:00.004+08:00

Picture this :

You are sitting in a dark room... there is a light bulk in the hanging in the middle of the ceiling, its yellow gives a weak glow...Its a woodern floor that you are stepping on... you look to the 4 walls, its empty, maybe theres some wordings written on it? Just maybe... but you cant be bother either way...

The window is wide open.. its a clear sky today... no stars, neither is there the familiar moonlight which provides a glimer of glow... You sit down on the couch in the middle of the room, your thoughts start to drift in mid air... You cant recall what you are thinking but it doest matter either ... Your heart's feeling heavy... maybe your're sad? But it doesnt matter...

It starts with the prick or maybe its more than that... its like, a kid who finds out that both his parents have meet in an accident and he's all alone... the closest ppl he has is now gone... gone is like that... Familiar faces, scents & voices.... they come back to you in so vivid that you believed that it was real...

There is a sound... like those that they play during a funeral? Like those that you hear when its accompanied with sobs & sighs....

This time it sounds like one of those songs from Coldplay maybe ? or Snow Petrol... and yes, its hard to explain...and yes, its tears that you feel, moists your eyes and steady forms a tear drop that drips past your cheeks... you feel the saltyness on your lips... it forms a steady line... meeting in the centre of the chin... I wish you were here to wipe it dry?

The music continues.... I think i recognized this song....

There's the instrument playing at the background...He's singing... He's saying something about being happy?

Most of what i remember, makes me sure... i should have stopped you from walking through the door...

One of the song froms - Snow Patrol - "Eyes Open"
- ColdPlay - "Yellow"

1st Aug 2011

2011-08-01T23:34:00.002+08:00

Back to re-bloging just tonight as I'm currently in the right mood i guess?
More like thinking quite abit and abit confused... aint sure what im really thinking exactly...

Mainly decision i guess? Havent been a big fan of it... and basically I suck at it too, even in simply decisions like what to eat, when to do and a whole bunch of other stuff. It sometimes depresses me as i know its really a flaw that probably will be stuck with me for a quite a while (its character) after all...

Sometimes make a decision is hard because u tend to be consider for both party, thinking of the consequence, pro & cons of each decision etc... even putting oneself into the other person's shoe...*confused*

Some days i just i wished i had total freedom, free from everything... probably going like bag packing or something, daring new challenges, exploring what life has to offer...Life supposed to be enjoy but why is not everyone born equal? Why does some day is lived for the sake of survival? Why are some ppl born with the golden spoon and others born with the piles of misery ?

At this point, i should be grateful, which I am but no harm in ranting i guess. What I'm stating are just facts of life...I day dream, but after hitting the pillow and awakening the next day.. its constantly same shit different day :) Living to die another day...

Im thinking of changing a new job... but....( u guys know the drill rite? Uncertainty, pay, new environment, adaptation....)
Damn it, should just buy lottery & strike first price...lol...

I guess its just another random post.... sorry folks & gd nite !

May 2011 - Some updates

2011-05-07T00:32:00.003+08:00

Its been 2 months since last update? Kinna becoming a mini diary to life's happening these days eh? How have you all been?
*As if i have readers =p"

Been busy with work mainly these days... work is stressful, lots of things going on in the office. Some are directly related to work... more work, higher target & stuff... others would be relationships with ppl, as the dept grows bigger... new ppl join the company... personality tends to differ, conflicts arising arent new.... politics develop... its tiring...

And if you ask me, why stay... i actually dont have much of a choice frankly speaking... sometimes when one meets a crossroad in their life, its choices one have to make... alot of times it boils down to self over others, and logically if putting others before self... that leaves with no choice... so I am what I am now...

They say that whatever does not kill you makes you stronger... guess thats true with my life? Becoming somewhat complacement somehow... I need.... to adjust.... but what, i'm still figuring out... ok, so back to sales & my job... outright pushing from the 1st day of the month, 1st May 2011.... its gonna be a struggle right to the finishing line... probably till the end of 2011?! *only god knows...*

Study's easing up... probably my last sem soon...so thats kinna good news...and yes,finally after 3 yrs.. hahah... then i might wanna focus in developing other skills giving more free time...

oh...btw, i think you shouldn't care too much about how others look at u...sometimes its more important to get acceptance within urself before looking at how others view you... make sure that ur comfortable with something, and not suite others when its a opinionated viewpoint... and yes, i know it would be good if we could meet everyday.. but sometimes... hard mah...

*pls don't get angry :).. u know i sayang u right?? ...*

So when u get into ur internship, its a start of another journey..its not as bad as you think.. so if case if you need share anything or need support.. im here de wor....

...... sorry folks, as I said.. this is becoming more like my personal mini diary which i pour my thoughts unfiltered in here... :))

Sorry if you find it boring... til then, good nite ppl

...

2011-03-01T23:18:00.001+08:00

I'm tired of this routine...

Working without pleasure... just to hit numbers... so that nobody starves...

Going to classes ... just to get attendance marks... so that I can graduate faster...

I need a break...

Its a new year

2011-02-02T12:17:00.003+08:00

Its so fast & already first month past of the year 2011.

Resolutions, hopes, goals & dreams all coming in place for some people. Daring to dream big & start fresh perhaps for others...for me, nothing much for resolution, wasnt really a big fan of them cuz unless u have really strong willpower & determination, very likely half of those things on the resolution list end up staying thr for the next couple of years :)

A direction set is what i have in place. Its working towards stability in all aspects, if thats not too much to ask for... career, wealth, relationships & health. (Pretty common). Had a hunch that this was gonna be a tough year, was correct about that :) Last month, January was an interesting month... or rather exciting 1.

Thankful that could hit my sales target which was skyhigh. And that goes without saying that I grateful for the support given by my dear :):). Last month was our 2 years... time flies doesnt it and wasnt really that spectacular celebration or what so ever. For those who know me, romantic will never be a word to describe me, anyhow, doesnt mean i cant try... haha...

So well, after consulting half of the people i know on what to get... finally just decided to go window shopping. Saw this cup that had a picture of a cute girl with short hair that fits exactly ... so i got that plus some Pachi chocs to fill it up :) Hope that she likes it... and sorry again, i never put pictures on my blog... which makes reading kind of dull.. sorry ya..

Was good to be together as a couple and many more to come... CNY is also around the corner... lots of ppl busy and all but i think CNY is alot more quieter than what it used to be... anyhow, lets reserve thoughts thoughts till another day cuz writing it here will be another long story to tell ...

OK folks.. thats all for now & c ya :)

In reply to a frenz blog

2011-01-09T17:49:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone, its already 2011, brand new year with the last year passing by so quickly...

Been lazy in updating this blog for quite a while, anyway, was going through a fren blog who you might say is pretty famous...you might know who I am referring to if i were to mentioned names. Anyhow, after reading the blogpost, it gave me some things to think about and reflect... was tempting to put in a comment at the end of the blogpost but after much consideration I not no...reasons reserved.

But what I liked to put forth and perhaps place it as an encouragement to those who get it, and for those who think you don like the way I'm say, feel free to click on the top right x button :).

Everybody is entitled to his opinion. You cant please everyone, thats a fact. And because every single thing or at least most things are opinionated, why do bother even caring about what others say or really think. Unless perhaps if its somebody close to us or person saying that which is meant to be constructive.

Of course, this comes without saying that everything is easier than done. Mostly unbringing & life experiences through a slow journey shapes this. Thats very true for me at least. Somedays I don give a damn to what others say and think... till the point that it gets into the nerves of ppl who sincerely care... (Im stubborn :D) Taking this opportunity to apologize to those who know me personally & relate to it... I m trying to change...

I personally thing u have prefer strong character & u can choose to apply it to things you genuinely do not want to care. And seriously, its not really some big deal that you cant handle. Probably one of those ranting moments that we hit the rock bottom in the up & down curves of life. But pretty sure that for whatever that comes down, will go up again... plus probably tonnes of encouragement from ur supporters.

If it helps, take a break, go out with frenz and chill, enjoy life and continue back rejuvenated.

** As for me, Im lazy to update my personal life here :) Perhaps when i have mood ...

*** 26 Jan is the anniversary... tell me what to get for you? =p

Just Thinking Aloud

2010-12-07T00:04:00.003+08:00

Serenity & boredom are just a fine line apart...

Life goes in a circle, meaningless without a purpose...

Reality is elusive, the moment you think u've grasp it, it slips away;
(Illustrated by catching of the rainbow with one hands... )

Geniuses probably have more problems than a layman... cuz he thinks too much...

A true fren, a companion is all it takes to withstand a world of troubles

Mankind's history is full of regrets, yet we still repeat it over & over...

Forgiving others is not easy; holding is grudge caused bitterness

p/s : Im not being emo... :) Will update more later, when i think of more...

Nov 2010...

2010-11-17T21:53:00.003+08:00

Part 1 :

Thinking of changing car...after what happened last week...

Purely coincidence that all these bad stuff coming in a streak or just as what others call 'bad luck' ? Whats gonna be done next? Bath with "Holy water / Flower water"? lol...

Hard to get past the accident that's so damn vivid in my mind... till now, probably able to do an instant replay mentally anytime i wish too... of course, i hope i get past this grey event.. but its gotta take a while to do that + not sure whether there would be phobia after that...

My colleague say... "Think you better not drive after this... dangerous la u..."

I was like.... "Hmmmmm....(long pause)"

Alright... thats for least of worry, worrying part is the process to get the car fix. bloody agents / callman who make making $$$ first priority... don't even know exactly whats the progress like till this day... driving me impatient & agitated with this waiting...

Whats worse is how to deal & live without my ride... how gonna make trips to see her... how to get around .... gosh... back to public transport..

Its a public holiday & m glad that we had our date today :)... just loved it.. the sight of seeing ya...

Thats all for now signing off with some quick updates that are not arranged in an orderly fashion :)

G Nite PPl !!

... ok, this is a continuation from earlier post, abit more...

Here comes Part 2 :

Its like the Harry Potter that i just watched, earlier part, part 1 was the hanging part.. and this is gonna be the 'climax' :) Even though im kinna lazy to update fully and cant recall everything at 1 go.

Since somebody has DEMANDED then no choice eh.. thats what happens when ur in wanna make that someone who u care alot... there are days that what u think and what u want dont matter that much after all if that person is not that to share it with u... some days no matter how shitty ur day is, that someone's smile will be all that matters... No words needed to be uttered.. and ur day arent that bad after all cuz at least u know there's always gonna be that support when ur needing it...

Coming back to my deliberation on changing car...in case, you already know, its cuz i've got involved in another accident... 2nd time this yr, in a span of 2 months plus? Sigh... i think i am aware what actually went wrong & perhaps it could be avoided? Anyway, its past... no point looking back..

Some since its an accident, did lots of research about procedures on how to go about doing the claiming & stuff... read through lots of webpages, consulted lots of ppl who had hell alot of differing opinions and mostly clueless cuz not been in that situation before.. and seriously i wasnt even bothered to find out more about this earlier on cuz it never occured to me that this would really happen... so to all you folks out there who are driving, my advice is get to know ur stuff well.. know what to do when these things happened... nobody wants to get his car crash & get tolled off, but shit happens at times... and sooner than u except it, its already there ...

Ok.. so I'm gonna be without my car for like at least 3-4 weeks, could be longer if those idiots delay the process.. thinking of it makes me ticked off... but nothing much i can really do... and yeah, i was thinking bout corruptions ... (perhaps totally random) but cuz of corruption... every party that is involved after a crash / accident is trying to suck out as much profit from each other... business is always about exploitation i agree... and starting from the callman, toll truck guy, mechanic, police, JPJ, adjustors & whoever that is guilty in this...without corruption, nothing goes smoothly... they wont even give a damn... with corruption comes another set of problem though... but in the end.. all i hope for is getting back my car in its original state before the accident ASAP.

This wait is killing me... gonna have to miss seeing her and public transports arent that ideal here either (probably already telling me not to go thr...), knowing its gonna tough on both of us... do hope that can really bear up... its always a case that is easier said than done... (applies for most of things in life... )...

But wait for it k? I m sure things gonna be quick... exams around the corner as well.. so hopefullly this gonna help me distract & focus on the more important things... with this distraction, keep time passing faster and cut all the agony of expectations & waiting...

So far thats all for now :).. brain cells arent functioning so well.. *Winks*

Changes : Am I Ready?

2010-10-26T22:27:00.002+08:00

A fren once said : "The hardest part of ending is to start again... and whr do we begin? "

Technically its not like the end, its something more minor changes... in general its inevitable, thats life... anyway, what am i worried about? its gotta be related to work as usual, nothing much can be done to take the mind from it when at least 8 hours of life revolves around that...

Small changes : Different seating arrangement

Big changes : Uncertainty of the future (general...)

So lets talk about seating arrangements, I'll be moving to a new seating + SMALLER table... thinking whr the hell to fit all my stuffs... the new table gotta be at least half the size my current 1... anyway, gonna miss my usual colleagues who are happenings ones...

Bigger picture, its already end of October,2 months from now.. its a brand new ... everyone talking about resolutions & all that crap... ok, to me, it wont really work unless ur really discipline in doing it...

In regards to work, target gonna increase for sure, what accounts stay, what accounts given to charity, thats yet to be seen.. but one things for sure... wont be that great... KPIs.... bla bla bla...

Waiting for someone to smack me from the back... then that would be the green light for "gerila attack" :D... bring it on ppl !!

Just a short update

2010-09-28T23:17:00.002+08:00

Just a short update on whats going on right now...

So as i mentioned earlier "After a storm is a rainbow", now it seems that the storm has kinna subsided slightly and over the horizon is the rainbow =p.. just a glimpse of it...

Its like light at the end of the dark tunnel (ok.. that was un-neccessary).. :)

So i fixed my car at this "Mudgut" guy who does "Ketuk Kereta", and its in KLANG, it was awesome job done, price was reasonable, unlike the guys who i went to asked back in kl... which were totally unhelpful and asked me to change the whole bumper anyway... alright, so much for the ranting...many thanks to SOMEONE's recommendation, that part is Kaotim... The phrase of "Belum cuba belum tau... sudah cuba hari hari mau" = D, (Pls don apply this out of context)

Motorcycle guys that didnt get himself killed gave me a call, wanted to settle the unsettled... so still in discussion process but at least some progress..

And this month target, thank goodness hit. That I must say is with some luck & i m grateful for it.

Okie... this is dedicated to you know who went ur reading : "Somethings are out of my control k? But I ll always try to make sure that things will be better.. at least I try :)... so don get upset ya... and have more confidence in urself.. In you i beliveve !'

Thats all for today folks :) Goodnite.

When the going gets tough, the tough get going...

2010-09-21T23:58:00.002+08:00

I realized... somedays...bad things just happen altogether... they don't come in a orderly queque....and thats bad... and it just get worse at times...

Not to say that I m totally going through like a bad patch of life... its call the thing that happen in life... nobody wants these things.. but we know at some point or another.. it will just be there to bug ur life.. and you have to get over with it..

Thats my plan... hopefully its gonna be better and not for the worse =p... well, its a mixture with good things along the way as well.. which is a consolation i presume...

And i thought fit & timely that i start to do some self improvement myself, trying to improve skills, knowledge and understanding... else, i ll be a left out.. already feeling the effect...

Problem is : Where to start and how to start ? lol...

I m tough ya.. and i m getting going...its just the beginning...

She.... was what i was thinking about...

2010-09-21T21:20:00.000+08:00

That day i was thinking... thinking about her... I noticed that she has changed... And something about myself too... that i ve changed.. slightly... for her...

I've always like the way she smiles, very sweet smile... her grin makes my heart warm... perhaps she didnt realize that she is beautiful... with a pair of very big eyes... double eye lids... and cheeks that i like to peek on the sides every now and then...

I m thinking this is a mixed feeling cuz I miss her... want to be seeing her right now... and when i realized this feeling is subconscious... i feel that i love her more & more day by day... that i don know how or what would happen if she really left...

I mean we cant tell the future as I as say to her... but its something that i am indeed afraid to think about.. and hope will not happen... i m touch by her... that she even though being very stubborn at times, i feel that she is also trying to make herself a better gf... but i don think perfection :):)... cuz she's perfect... i feel her sincereness.. it touches my heart...

People look at appearance ... perhaps that is through to everybody...but for me...it doesnt matter if u don go on diet :) Really, as long as u don go hungry.. thats all fine with me... and seriously our 'fren' who went on diet is too thin... and i don know how to react to it either....

Erm... this post is kinna spontaneous... but it does kinna sum up what i feel right now towards u...ILU :):)

Main stream media = basket full of lies...

2010-09-18T23:56:00.002+08:00

Main stream media = basket full of lies...

Some days, i seek for more information through means of surfing on the internet... The more crap you get each day... I am implying matters regarding this "Boleh-land"... Every aspect that you look into, you can only see things getting from bad to worse... You do the comparison urself.. looking at pure facts & seeing it with an open mind.

One might argue... we have quite a great deal of development... KLCC, Sepang... isn't that enough of waste of taxpayers $$... (And yeah, I'm paying tax... i can rant all i want...)

Every topic that you might look into just cause anger & rage to boil... Ignorant people, selfish inclinations, so full of themselves... changes has to occur.. and it arent just about the ppl... its about the thinking, upbringing, attitudes.. boils down to the core value of us as the people in this land...

Just to pen down ... part of this dis-factory feeling that keeps me fill with anger on this cool Sunday nite (00.00 AM)

Its raining... heavy... storm seems to be brewing... its the same with ppl here... 13 May ??? ...

Good nite ppl !!

I think i have the lameness of the highest level

2010-09-16T22:49:00.001+08:00

Just a short updated cuz I want to update :)

I m lame & in case my readers don't already know.. i m lame

Smile & Wave Boys... :)

2010-09-14T23:02:00.004+08:00

Updating my blog again... this month like abit active eh =p... seems like updating a diary actually.. but its ok la...

Things were much more better today, can smile more :)...Glad SOMEBODY more happy... happiness is contagious... but works boring, seemed abit lost at work though.... not to mention that today was gonna be awesome morning to stay snuggled in bed... it rained again !! 2 days in a row.. and in the morning...

Sales is moving ... which is surprising.. hopefully it stays that way... else the pressure will be on me... different kind of pressure from studying in school and in college... datelines & exams... those were killers.

So, managed to contact this Creative Director which happened to be attached with RAPP... planning to fix an appointment to interview her, get some biodata kinna thingy... For ur assignment babe :)... Have a feeling it'll turn out well... but her profile in linkedin is pretty intimidating... but i think we're all good, just need to find the right time to fit her schedule...

So ya... overall mood today is quite good :)...

"Just smile & wave boys..." - Skipper the Penguin, Madagascar...

An update

2010-09-13T22:17:00.002+08:00

Its 10.30 pm... I had some emotions or maybe some thoughts.. suddenly felt like blogging a little.. just a little...

Today's a Monday... didnt get out to a good start.. was late for work... mood while reaching the office wasnt ideal... but didnt last so long...

Felt kinna relieve that I had some guidance and advice after speaking to some ppl about what happened 2 days ago... i realized its not a big deal.. but obviously when its the first time you go through stuff like that...i guess its natural..

So i figured out how to kinna put this issue to an end.. gave the guy a call and further negotiations to get down to business, talking about the costing ... hopefully it wont cost me a bomb... getting some stuff planned in my mind.. what to do ... who to ask... when to take leave... bla bla bla...

This is relatively settled... but i have something else troubling me... feeling that its becoming a distance... but frankly speaking, I really wounldnt take it to heart... hugz would be good now i assumed... a real warm & big hugz...

Oh well, and another thing... i think i m a nerd...but i haven been reading much lately, gotta do something about it... ( this is random... but thats how i feel ), perhaps its just a confused feeling within me that shows itself in the form of this confuse state of thoughts...

Not sure when will be the next update.. but that's all for now I guess...

Good nite peeps !!

I'm shaken-ed !!

2010-09-12T02:08:00.002+08:00

Its 2.00 am... just reached home, washed up & took my shower...

I m feeling kinna weird... shaken by what actually happened a few hours ago...seems like so many things happen within just less than such a short span...

This is the first time I got involved in a such a thing... and definately hope that it will be the last...anyway, if ur still wondering what's that first time thingy... well, its cuz i just got involved in a traffic accident...i mean those incidents like knocking the pole, hitting the curve of the road while driving... those are no big deal... am such everyone wont be able to avoid those stuff...

This accident that i got involved wasn't such a big issue ... [nobody died :( ]... OK so, this happened after dinner... all was fine until after dinner... and it was 9 pm the day before... i think....

Everything happened in just a split second... until now it still puzzles me... i mean... i think nobody was really right... or for that matter wrong... it was a head on collision, the road condition sucked to the max... pot holes all over made you think that you were probably on the surface of the moon... ok... and err no street lights... Worse thing is that I wasnt even sure if the 'victim' who i knocked was having his headlights on... anyway, he was riding...just in case you were curios...

So...every 5 min, i have this flash forward images of how these things occurred and yet i cant seem to be able to recall what exactly happened... and ya.. when the crash occurred...I began to panic... for a moment i thought this must be a dream... but then i realized its for real, the guy is laying on the ground... To the clinic we went, followed by the police station...

Anyway... its a really messed up experience... really disturbing actually...

Believe it or not... I was just thinking to myself the very same day that I am very lucky not to be involved in an accident so far...was thinking of what a fren told me: "During ur first 2 yrs of driving... Its ur most vulnerable period...chances are u're deemed to get involved in 1.. but just make sure you don get involved in a real serious 1..." These words still kicking me from within... few hours passed from now...

Actually its not just the accident itself that got me this mixed feelings within me...how do i put it... so many things going on in my mind even i m confused... Here is 1 of it... I m not very sure if I did the right thing, as in how i settled the issue with the 'victim'...

Here's my logic : "Ok fine... he did suffer more damage... physically + motorcycle damage" "My damage is my car's gonna need fixing, I paid for his medical, lorry to get the motorcycle over to the police station.... now he wants me to pay for the cost of repair for his bike...(half of it - is that suppose to be a consolation? ) and not even sure if I will get the 300 bucks police summon...

I am just writing it here cuz I really feel like speaking to someone.... so much in my mind right now... really have to let some go.... I m thinking a real holiday to keep my mind from everything will be nice... really awesome...

I also need to apologize to you... cuz you know i m hard headed when it comes to making decision, even though its not really the wisest of choices but often have my own 'reasons' or excuses as you may put it to justify myself...but rightfully, i am not sure if i'm right or wrong...i know and feel ur concern... its just that everything happening, happens real quick & i.... i just don't know...

I guess after writing abit here.. I am slightly relieved...

Hope i can sleep ... and i think i already have a phobia...

Eminem - Love The Way You Lie ft. Rihanna

2010-08-22T00:00:00.003+08:00

This song been playing on & on in my mind... Just keeps stuck thr...

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down
Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Here is the MTV :

Enjoy... :)

Some Updates

2010-07-06T21:02:00.003+08:00

This is just to reaffirm that life is never fair..

Never was, is not right now & will never be...

I am hoping that in the next 10 yrs to come... I will have to force to eat back my words... but anyhow... work is piling up...

Not all that bad, depending on which angle you look at it... more target = more stress = slightly more income, thats provided you hit your target..

Everyone is a fresh page, comes 1st of the month... sales target set, gotta start from zero right again... And it aren't refreshing either with latest turn off events which sees office politics (A to Zee.... needless for me to elaborate...)

College is its same told story... classes, course works, exams... soaking up all the stress & feeling it.. Assignments due in few days time & i just barely started (case of de-generative brain cells or pure laziness? :D)

Uttering the statement as above does not exactly mean that I am really disgruntle or unhappy... but i wonder at times... "what if... "

So many 'ifs' and some many 'buts'.... but it still comes down to this... Like it or not... things don't change if u don't try to change em'...

2010-04-10T17:03:00.003+08:00

Clearing my emails during the weekends..

Came across that I suppose my Malaysian frenz who get it :D

Enjoy!

British English vs. Malaysian English

Who says our English is teruk? Just read below - Ours is simple, short, concise, straight-to-the-point, effective etc.

WHEN GIVING A CUSTOMER BAD NEWS
Britons: I'm sorry, sir, but we don't seem to have the sweater you want in your size, but if you give me a moment, I can call the other outlets for you.

Malaysians: No stock..

RETURNING A CALL
Britons: Hello, this is John Smith. Did anyone call for me a few moments ago?

Malaysians: Hello, who call?

ASKING SOMEONE TO MAKE WAY
Britons: Excuse me, I would like to get by. Would you please make way?

Malaysians: S-kew me.

WHEN SOMEONE OFFERS TO PAY
Britons: Hey! Put your wallet away, this drink is on me.

Malaysians: No need lah.

WHEN ASKING FOR PERMISSION
Britons: Excuse me, but do you think it would be possible for me to enter through this door?

Malaysians: (pointing at the door) Can ah?

WHEN ENTERTAINING
Britons: Please make yourself right at home.

Malaysians: No need shy shy one lah!

WHEN DOUBTING SOMEONE
Britons: I don't recall you giving me the money.

Malaysians: Where got?

WHEN DECLINING AN OFFER
Britons: I would prefer not to do that, if you don't mind.

Malaysians: Don't want lah.

IN DISAGREEING ON A TOPIC OF DISCUSSION
Britons: Err...Tom, I have to stop you there. I understand where you're coming from, but I really have to disagree with what you said about the issue.

Malaysians: You mad ah?

WHEN ASKING SOMEONE TO LOWER THEIR VOICE.
Britons: Excuse me, but could you please lower your voice? I'm trying to concentrate over here.

Malaysians: Shut up lah!

WHEN ASKING SOMEONE IF HE/SHE KNOWS YOU..
Britons: Excuse me, but I noticed you staring at me for sometime. Do I know you?

Malaysians: See what, see what?

WHEN ASSESSING A TIGHT SITUATION.
Britons: We seem to be in a bit of a predicament at the moment..

Malaysians: Die lah!!

WHEN TRYING TO FIND OUT WHAT HAD HAPPENED
Britons: Will someone tell me what has just happened?

Malaysians: What happened ah? Why like that one lah?

WHEN SOMEONE DID SOMETHING WRONG
Britons: This isn't the way to do it. Here, let me show you.

Malaysians: Like that also don't know how to do!

WHEN ONE IS ANGRY
Britons: Would you mind not disturbing me?

Malaysians: Celaka you!

$$$ ....

2010-04-07T00:48:00.003+08:00

Obsessed with $$$ all day long these days...

Not sure if its a good or bad sign...

I wanna retired early... thats the plan... :) Dreaming you say?

Dreams are better imagined than those without anything to hope for...

Have the mood to update the blog earlier so this blog basically spills thoughts on my mind... But being lazy as usual... I decided that this will be all I spill today !!

Its been a while....

2010-03-03T00:05:00.002+08:00

Its been a while since i last update...

This is more like a shoutout... I've been busy... Too busy to notice ppl around... Too busy to be bothered... Too busy to notice...

Its like driving ur vehicle at 220km per hour on the highway during the nite.. without the streetlights....

Its a straight road... heels on the gas paddle....

You start slowing down... looking at the signboard... its like a journey that has gone all the way for a whole looooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnngggggggggggggg year...

Tiredness creeps in... boredom too accompanying... you look to you left & to ur right... you realized things changed..

Changed so much... so much... I look to myself in the rear mirror... i see ....

I see..... seeee....

And I look up the sky.... its a full moon... serenity indeed....

November Updates

2009-11-19T22:49:00.002+08:00

This post is also kind of random...

Actually don want what to update also...

This post, lazy to think in perfect english so chin chai taruk only...

Long time never blog liao... lost touch of what to write... but since got bit bit mood + due to popular demand, i ll update bit bit..

Starting from... work... same boring routine lor... from my earlier post, if you've been following... this yr is a relatively good yr la... but thats for this yr only...things pretty rossy for me la...

But then again, since this is good yr for me & not so good for everyone else within sales... my target confirm sure double fold at least... "die die die..." Till then, control also not in my hand right? So cannot be worried SO much... only can pray real hard that next yr economy improve to like 07, the good older days...

Okie, so much for wishful thinking for now... update u guys about studies. New semester started almost 5 weeks(or somewhere around there)... got so new faces, new friends... interesting ppl... not so interesting lecturers who are almost monotonous voice... feels like hypnosis therapy in class...

And lets not forget another lecturer who is new... who insists that everyone must know her profile... where she obtained her qualification, experiences & expertise ... bla bla bla... she had to make sure everybody knew her profile, she showed her profile at least 3 times in that class that very day. First time was when she came into class, 15 minutes later when another 2 students came in together class... and she just had do it another time 45 minutues later when a student came in...hmmmm... (thinking was that even necessary) neways who really cares where you studied!

To cut things short, her class are really.... ermm..., it just doesnt make me feel so comfortable... felt like dropping that subject tim but "boh bian" have to take it worrying that it would be quite a while before they would have this subject in other sems to come.

Ah ha... the kid who dreams big also suddenly becomes excited to start own business... planning begings... trying to source for suppliers... arrange logistic... where to sell produts.... been a great idea but slightly stuck for now.. :) hopefully this enthusiastic energy keeps the dream alive... but it might be half way through as lots of stuff that i try to do =p .... not a big big dream.. but something i feel would be a personal milestone achievement if really does work out...

Aiseh... late already, time to sleep... see you nxt month, if i m not too lazy to update this blog .. hehe... nitez ppl !!

Amazing reply by J.P. Morgan CEO to a Pretty girl..

2009-09-15T23:09:00.001+08:00

Another 1 of those forwarded emails, but found it meaningful... Enjoy...

A young and pretty lady posted this on a popular forum:

Title: What should I do to marry a rich guy?

I'm going to be honest of what I'm going to say here. I'm 25 this year.
I'm very pretty, have style and good taste. I wish to marry a guy with $500k annual salary or above. You might say that I'm greedy, but an annual salary of $1M is considered only as middle class in New York .
My requirement is not high. Is there anyone in this forum who has an income of $500k annual salary? Are you all married? I wanted to ask: what should I do to marry rich persons like you? Among those I've dated, the richest is $250k annual income, and it seems that this is my upper limit. If someone is going to move into high cost residential area on the west of New York City Garden ( ? ) , $250k annual income is not enough.
I'm here humbly to ask a few questions:

1) Where do most rich bachelors hang out? (Please list down the names and addresses of bars, restaurant, gym)

2) Which age group should I target?

3) Why most wives of the riches is only average-looking? I've met a few girls who doesn't have looks and are not interesting, but they are able to marry rich guys.

4) How do you decide who can be your wife, and who can only be your girlfriend? (my target now is to get married)

Ms. Pretty

------------ --------- ------------- --------- ------------------------

Amazing reply:

Dear Ms. Pretty,

I have read your post with great interest. Guess there are lots of girls out there who have similar questions like yours. Please allow me to analyse your situation as a professional investor. My annual income is more than $500k, which meets your requirement, so I hope everyone believes that I'm not wasting time here.! From the standpoint of a business person, it is a
bad decision to marry you.. The answer is very simple, so let me explain.

Put the details aside, what you're trying to do is an exchange of
'beauty' and 'money': Person A provides beauty, and Person B pays for it, fair and square. However, there's a deadly problem here, your beauty will fade, but my money will not be gone without any good reason. The fact is, my income might increase from year to year, but you can't be prettier year after
year. Hence from the viewpoint of economics, I am an appreciation asset, and you are a depreciation asset. It's not just normal depreciation, but exponential depreciation. If that is your only asset, your value will be much worried 10 years later.

By the terms we use in Wall Street, every trading has a position, dating with you is also a 'trading position'..
If the! trade value dropped we will sell it and it is not a good idea to keep it for long term - same goes with the marriage that you wanted. It might be cruel to say this, but in order to make a wiser decision any assets with great depreciation value will be
sold or 'leased'. Anyone with over $500k annual income is not a fool; we would only date you, but will not marry you.
I would advice that you forget looking for any clues to marry a rich guy. And by the way, you could make yourself to become a rich person with $500k annual income.
This has better chance than finding a rich fool.

Hope this reply helps .... If you are interested in 'leasing' services, do contact me ...

signed,
CEO
J.P. Morgan :)

Its september lor... 9 months into 2009 !

2009-09-05T18:14:00.003+08:00

Times passes fast... before really realizing it, its already September 2009. I asked myself, what have I done thus far so these 9 months. Since having some free time this Saturday afternoon, occupied with boredom... mind starts to wonder to & looking back, evaluating every aspects that I could think off - work, studies, socially, personal development, family & relationships with others...

Pondering upon these, not much has basically changed, at least not many things that i really have put effort to make a difference. From a 3rd persons viewpoint - looking at me, one might notice changes - but deep down I know these things changed because of time. It would only be natural to become more mature as time passes, also of course time remaining to finish my course would be shorten... (examples). Wouldn't say that no effort has been put forth, perhaps its just that I know i can do better?

Btw, reemphasizing that i don't like that studying... makes going through the studying period all the more agonizing... coursework, datelines, submissions, assignments & yeah, I HATE EXAMS !! As though i can escape it, sem exam gonna start in 3 weeks or so... anyhow, just wanna finish this course quickly... don't wanna quit half way..

2009 has been rather a fruitful year in regards the aspect of work... Most days are busy ones, 9-6 passing by quickly... of course, its the usual rewarding the best, damn & woe to the loser... When you accomplish something, ppl have expectation on you to perform... to maintain & achieve & outdo... The biggest question mark lies if I am capable ?? Its not totally a bad thing altogether I would think... perhaps one needs to fall down, get up & work double hard every now & then...

Another 4 months time & a brand new year - keeping fingers cross on what to expect...as my senior mentioned, "You can only be a superstar once in this company... been there, done that & proven - look at me ..." Being a believer of always maximizing individual potential let see what will happen...

So long ppl !!

Aimless...

2009-08-05T00:10:00.002+08:00

Been a while since i last posted up anything... Been busy & lazy as usual..

Still got nothing much to say thus far yet... But turning of events were slightly unexpected...Would say that changing of events would really be a huge burden upon me... Not too sure as to what to expect.

Taking everyday as it is...On the positive note, it does give me a slight glimpse of baring... being steered without much choice, not so many decisions needed to be made. Of course, apart from being aimless - Year 2009 is quite a good year for personal career. Breaking personal records...

Amazingly, contrary to what i always imagined it would feel like... feeling of "being there' is perhaps not as great as expect... Or perhaps some pieces of other elements are just not complete ... perhaps ....

Just like this posting is virtually a piece of blank crap... Its the same situation for me right now... Going on auto-pilate... It aren't me that the decision... its what i have to do... & thats what i will do..

Good nite ppl... Till then...

Tired ~

2009-05-24T23:47:00.003+08:00

I am tired of everything..

Sick of myself...sick of how things are...

I suddenly remembered what causes a stone heart... damn it..

I hate being human - human with feelings... hate that feeling that makes me so weak within...

I want reforms...I miss being rebellious... I m confused...

I wish to let the Devil within let loose.

And perhaps I will ~ very soon i think?

Barclays Premier League CHAMPIONS 2009 - coming to KL !!

2009-05-18T23:58:00.008+08:00

Hail the champions !! No offense to supporters of the other football clubz ... but there can only be 1 winner - THE BEST !

Slightly late in putting this post of celebration, needing a point from 2 matches, Manchester United sealed the EPL 2009 title with a goaless draw with Arsenal - rather dull game i would say...

Neways - here are some nice wallpaper taken from Man Utd's official website. Click here to view more in regards to this. Some cool papers below :)

Btw, would believe most hard core Man U fanz, or not so hard core would know that there are coming to town - KL on 18 July 09. 2 more months exactly to go? Hohoho... gonna rock ! Hear that gonna be 85k tickets available on sale for the frenly match at Bukit Jalil National Stadium !

ProEvents International Sdn Bhd would be the official organizers of the ManU Asia Tour 2009;

Ticketpro Malaysia Sdn Bhd has been appointed as the ticket agents. Official sales of the ticket should be by 1 June 2009, but early birds may pre-purchase tickets from selected Nike Concept Stores & Al-Iksan Sports Stores. The period open for the early bird is from 22nd - 31st May 2009. Early bird gets extra free ticket to watch ManU in training :)

Pricing starts from RM 58 & VIP tix going for RM 308. There's even student price too i heard - RM 28 but limited number thou...

Anyway, it would be super chun for them to come over...

Champion league around the corner - lets hope they can grab another trophy in the bag for this season. Rather tricky though since there are going against Barcelona !!

Hail the champions once more !!

Apologies

2009-05-17T00:00:00.002+08:00

I know this makes no difference since whatever happened has already past & time cannot be reverted. But I am really sorry for what I did...there was 2 different thoughts going on my mind when it happened.

I ve gotta admit that I am indeed guilty without any doubt. I guess the crack of selfish trait has shown its tail - I worry if it would get worse...

I shouldn't have raised my voice... i should have control my anger...

My concerns did in fact trouble me & I just didnt realize how obvoius it was reflected on my face. That sour / moody face & blady expression of disgust...

I m really sorry... knowing that right now lots of thinking is going on, on both sides...

I feel helpless - i abhor that feeling so much... the feeling of not being able to control...

But that's just what it is... I cannot control the outcome & i am lost of how to settle this issue as of now... perhaps & perhaps only time will reveal the future...

Not good in expression sorrow in words... wont do much relieve either...

...(dot dot dot ... )

Update - 1 paper 2 go, Slight Intro2new Blog...

2009-05-15T23:05:00.003+08:00

Huray !!! 3 papers down...

1 more additional paper more next week - which also spells the END of Sem 3... Seems been awhile since i have been attending classes but still Sem 3 only...

Been writing so lengthy answer but thats because i've got nothing in my brain... just got to pen something down instead of leaving it blank... cant afford to fail...

And so I planned many things, and many more to come... as like before i also plan + wishful thinking = zero achieved *guilty smile*

And lets see, i would come out if a list of "Things to do" if i wasn't so disorganized, in additional to being a procastinator + day dreaming overly too much.... busy..... (bla bla bla...)

Do hope to launch the new blog that i wanted at least before my b.dae... at least a place where i can pour out freely... this blog is more like a "Mama's Boy - kind of blog" should there be a comparison with the blog i m planning to launch... Gonna voice out grudges, disastisfaction + bang others + release tension... and remain Anonymous for the most part of it...

Just the thought of it also SYOK... but will take time to try to put everything together..

Hmmm... got more to say but i ll leave it for next time...

*P/S - This blog is becoming more like my personal diary...

Till then, got a feeling that i ll be back soon... Cheers & Good Nite Ppl !

Exam mau mali - Damn stress !!

2009-05-10T23:42:00.002+08:00

Will be starting a new blog by next month =p

Kind of liking the idea of it - i like it anyway...

Tuesday would sem 3 exam for me... but haven even started studying much as off now. Still got 1 more hours.. or perhaps i count down by the hours? i guess this fact testify or confirms that i'm a 'last minute' person.

But tension & pressure + stress is definately mounting - hate exams !! But really cant wait till exam finishes - its like a new fresh page, a new sem... so much planned forth....

However, somehow these days not feeling so at ease as I should be...its like the sort of feeling of "Dejawu"... knowing something bad might happen... or perhaps that just anxieties ... Going on study leave tmr... thankfully... but the shitty part is I am still worried about my work... hard to explain over here... I guess I have to somehow push that thought aside for the moment & let what comes - comes...

Actually trying to re-discover the feeling that i once had... the determination ... miss that feeling... that is why m planning to start that new blog... to pump up & hopefully that feeling does come back to me...

I'll be back... wish me luck for exam !!

Random

2009-05-09T15:20:00.003+08:00

Suppose to be a week to get my mind filled with study material but i would say that I m rather moodless to do so...

Tired of the usual routine of things...Studies, work...

I missing so many things - 1 of it ... blogging...

Neways... wish me the best for my exam next week

Born Rich?!

2009-04-26T23:33:00.003+08:00

Just kind of random feeling - football match nite.. syok but tired...

Hang out for short supper at the so called high class area - Mount Kiara.

Grand houses, expensive cars.... life best offerings?!

I guess i m envious... diu...even thou i shouldn't be ... but what to do... OKOK...

Maybe not everybody there were born in a rich family.. perhaps they managed to grab hold of supervb opportunity that came their way? or perhaps they worked their way up to what they are now?

Cant complaint so much de la... since being born in rich family not an option... left with the other shit choice lor.. what to do...

Monday blues again tmr.... sigh... work....

Nitez ppl !

Busy-ing Apr....

2009-04-22T22:41:00.002+08:00

Hi ~~

It's been a while... my fren say its been more than 5 weeks that since i last updated blog..

Busying - usual work, studies this sem pretty heavy too...

"Busy - just a phrase u use when u have poor time managment ... ! " - Quotes my Boss..

Sigh.. i guess i just suck at that... able to improve this area this yr? Hopefully so... suppose to be 1 of my 2009 resolution..

Damn - i hate that i procastinate so much !

Btw, hitting target last 2 months was SWEET :) ; Gotta save up thou, sales is like a roller coster anyway... got high got low.. now steady decline...

Orite folks.... will next update after my exam... c ya in 1 month time.

Today I feel...

2009-03-18T00:31:00.002+08:00

Today i feel so random...

Today i feel & perhaps realize that I am meant to be the under-dog - naturally born to be...

Today i feel that I don't feel comfortable when things too smoothly...

Today i feel i like & hate challenges...

Today i feel i inherited the blood of a 'fighter'...

Today i feel i nothing much - feels kind of meaningness - i think...

Today i feel tired as usual...

Today.... Tonite.... I sleep & wake up......

Today..... Routine.....

February Updates... Random..

2009-02-21T21:44:00.003+08:00

After a long silence - I decided to put up some thoughts within this 'left to dead' blog...

Not sure what spark this come back - not sure if it would sustain me from continuing blogging...

Main reason reason being inactive was due to tight schedule & supervbly busy.

Was going thru & trying to tidy up my room. While clearing my drawers - going thru the mess & clutter, I went thru stuff of my past - ranging from my early childhood, schooling days... photos, report cards ..... brought back memories & also a weird feeling...

Its not a feeling of emo-ness / sadness - maybe i wished for things to go back in time. Perhaps going back to the periods where i could be a silent figure watching from distance - viewing the growing process & experiencing how it felt like - what it was like back then...

Slowly taking walk thru time's path, realizing things improving & circumstances favouring on my side after all when i really look back. Not that things are bad right now - its just that alot of things have change... not necessary for the good or the better... its just that it wouldn't be the same & cant be undone... makes me feel that un-describle feeling within...

But overall - everyday passes fast - work, sales target, stress, studies, classes, routine activities of my life right now. For now - just wanna focus on this month's target :)

And yes, of course not forgeting... no matter how busy - people relationship is very important.. gotta maintain that... Especially if the person is very dear to you... I will definately treasure & value the important people in my life... make each second count so that I wont regret...

Thats it for now - aiming for my breakthrough next month ...wish me all the best.. kekeke...

January 09 Feelings...

2009-01-24T01:35:00.002+08:00

My blog is half dead as you guys might have realize. Like to apologize to those who visit frequently but disappointing to see that there arent any new post.

Have been quite occupied.. seriously..

Today's post is just a bit to pen down a bit of how I m feeling & think right now at this very moment.

Somethings that I kind of realize or perhaps more keen aware :

1. Time passes really fast (Without realizing its actual speed previously... Now looking at my watch, my calender - 24 days pass the so call 'new year 2009')

2. Recognition is important, no matter is work or in other matters.

3. The feeling of liking & love is indescribable. I believe i wont be wrong in saying that nobody really understand's its fully. Risky yet rewarding.

Actually things that happen in life have domino effects... Like for me, these 3 things have been in some way or another inter related thou seemingly unconnected in anyway. Will just elaborate into slightly detailed regarding the 3 matters.

Warning : The boring part starts from NOW !! =P

1. 2009 - A year I entered with renewed hope & expecation. 2008 was not too bad a year for me actually. All along i knew that time passes fast.. but somehow I never got to feel the 'speed' of time... its swiftness. Yet, just recently... just not too long ago... I really felt its 'speed' - I felt that 24 days have pass quickly & I couldnt seemed to be doing anything much benificial...

Ppl start the year with definate outlooks & resolution. I started mine with now exact clear cut direcction; just more towards preserving the routine done for the past year. But somehow, it just didnt feel so right when time go by...

Oh well, but since 1 day ago, due to a reminder from someone... I managed to adjust & started planning.. Planning as in not just setting a goal but organize steps to make things / processes alot more better & productive..For the time being, much of the organizing actually are work related...

2. Why did I talk about recognition?? I not sure myself too.. but its just a feeling that I have right now within me... This posting gets me in a mix feeling... The reason being is perhaps what i did in the past was not really recognize or efforts not acknowledge or other more negative that I would not wanna dwell upon.

Just briefly in summary... Perhaps things within the organization structure did change. I m amazed + surprise that changes & improvements were made to recognize efforts put forth....Or maybe i was amazed as it was rather unexpected... u know what they say about hopes & expectation... "The more you hope for...the more disaapointment you get when things doesnt turn out the way u expected it to be'...

Its a pleasant exprience & geez I am more motivated actually ... LOL.. Talking about motivation, just a few things works $$$, power, glory & recognition... But its also an opportunity to thank those who support what u ve been doing.. Do appreciate them... =)

3. It feels gud to be single... In fact every1 shud be proud to have that freedom of their own & don rush into being involved in a relationship... but of course, when u ve found some1 that u feel is the 'ONE' = the very special 1... then perhaps its about time to kiss bye-bye to singleness & work towards winning the speical 1 over...

But thats alwiz a risky step... very much indeed... but "no pain, no gain..." the higher the risk, the higher the returns perhaps?.... but a sense of satisfaction & fufillment does result when u live for some1 else, do something for some1 else... apart from urself durin the single days...

I m not gud at describing all the good feelings that might come being in a relationship but its something ppl who have experience it know what i mean.. XDXD

Looking forward to a better days & wont regret that .... Somebody does cherish & hold u dearly...

Thats all folks... CNY just round the corner.. remember not to play fire crackers without wearing safety gears... lol...

Have fun & happy CNY !!

JobStreet MCTF 2009

2009-01-15T20:49:00.005+08:00

Hello people..

Have been busy with work & lots of things taken up my time XD

Some information for those who might be keen to visit tomorrow's Malaysia's LARGEST Career & Training Faif (MCTF ) 2009 organized by JobStreet.com.

Getting straight to the point or click here t The event details are as follow:

Date : 16 ~ 18 January 2009
Time : 10am ~ 7pm
Venue : Mid Valley Exhibition Centre (KL)
Fee: ENTRANCE IS FREE

Floorplan

Exhibitors List

FAQ.

"For serious blogger, here are your chances to be featured on our monthly JobStreet Digest newsletter which goes out to more than 1 million jobseekers! Want to know how? It’s simple! All you need to do is to bring your camera, take some photos and blog about MCTF’09! Send your blog link to marketing-kl@jobstreet.com by 30 Jan 09 and we will feature the Top 3 blogs on our JobStreet Digest!”

Too tired to put more details... Gud nite ppl.. C u there.. lol XDXD

Feeling unfair..

2009-01-10T22:57:00.003+08:00

Recently this feeling of injustice has gotten really strong. Especially seeing & experiencing some unfair treatment - being the victim.

"This world is never fair & perhaps never will be..." - So true isn't it...

Why is there so much racial discremenation... class distinction & inequity...

But also coming into question is "How do you define FAIR? How sets its standard & who evaluates what is FAIR?" Different ppl, different definition...

- I m not sure if i would really wanna write what exact happen that cause this feeling...; but on a positive note - I m happy cuz of SOMEONE =)...

New Year Feelings

2009-01-08T21:36:00.003+08:00

Lots to write recently but due to the fact of me being busy / lazy, my blog is so dead - LOL...

What i am about to write is rather random, does not mean that i m being emo / really affected by it.

Lets talk about how i feel in a new year. Everyone is saying its a new year, you ought be happy & start fresh. Agreed... but for me it does not feel like a new year - people say that you can feel or go through the transition process when it comes to a new year. But to me - it didnt really mattered what year it was... Perhaps things that I m doing is getting very routine - whatever I have being doing for the year 2008; i am still doing it this very moment.

But time really passes fast & rather unknownly - really fast... Before realizing it, many things have became history & so totally forgetten by many... But whatever that has past sometimes is better left buried...

New year resolution for me? Nothing much in particuliar... perhaps... Do have some goals in mind.. just renewing slight determination...

Cant seem to coordinate my thoughts to put everything down in the blog...

Planning my year 2009... Part 1

2008-12-27T20:17:00.002+08:00

How is everyone lately? - I wondered....? Hopefully things are going great especialy with the festive & holidays during the yr end.

** Warning - This might be a typically boring post which might get you yawning & perhaps irritated later on... XD

Its been a while since I have really blog much bout thoughts as well as well as my personal life. Partly not knowing what to write in as nothing signifcant did happen...

Lets see, firstly I was glad that my sem has ended & of course final exam too.. on sem break till 12th January...=)

Work wise, a colleague of mine just resigned... its kind of sad to get to know someone & later on parting... But, no matter what - still wishing u the very best to your future undertaking.

But as usual as u guys know, I have been thinkin & still doing lots of thinking... This 2 - 3 months has been draining alot of my energy... Not sure how to word it, as some might sum it in a few lines
"I m bored of life... I don know where is my life heading... I am so tired...BUT I cant stop just right now.... I cant...cant..."

On the positive, its the end of 2008 & thank god its less than 1 week from now... time really passess fast... yet sometimes i wished that it pass even faster so that my agony & situation things for the better... on the other hand, u realize that u realize that ur older by a yr - no matter what ppl say, each of us know, we can never in time, what is left is memories & flashbacks...
"1 step closer to "Sheoul" - death & where the gravewards lie..."

Since 2009 is just round the corner, i though it gud to do some planning... more specific directions laid for the coming yr...
(But frankly part of me feels like just leaving everything & give up & lets things be the way they are - come what may & i may come)

Ignore what I said earlier as its just not possible, that would just be too selfish & irresponsible of me, wouldn't it?

Some of these are some of the things I have in mind for the coming year. Could have left out a few:

( Needing to thinking about it... Will update this post later on....)

TO BE CONTINUES....= P

Jokes Of Mr.Bean

2008-12-23T11:26:00.009+08:00

As per title.. something for u guys to smile.. especially on this celebrative day.. keke...

Some jokes are lame though.. so pls bear with it.. XD

1) BRAIN TUMOR:
Doctor: I regret to tell you that you have a brain tumor.
Mr. Bean: Yesss!!! (jumps in joy)

Doctor: Did you understand what I just told you?
Mr. Bean: Yes of course, do you think I'm dumb?

Doctor: Then why are you so happy?
Mr. Bean: Because that proves that I have a brain!

2) MR. BEAN WHILE IN GRADE SCHOOL:
Teacher: What is 5 plus 4?
Mr. Bean: 9

Teacher: What is 4 plus 5?
Mr. Bean: Are you trying to fool me, you've just twisted the figure, the answer is 6

3) WHILE IN A DRUG STORE:
Mr. Bean: I'd like some vitamins for my grandson.
Clerk: Sir, vitamin A, B or C?

Mr. Bean: Any will do, my grandson doesn't know the alphabet yet!!

4) AT AN ATM MACHINE:
Friend: What are you looking at?
Mr. Bean: I know your PIN no., hee, hee.

Friend: Alright, what is my PIN no. if you saw it?
Mr. Bean: four asterisks (****)!

5) Marriage:
Friend: How many women do you believe must a man marry?
Mr. Bean: 16

Friend: Why?
Mr. Bean: Because the priest says 4 richer, 4 poorer, 4 better and 4worse.

6) CHATTING WITH HIS FRIEND:
Friend: How was the CD you borrowed from me, is it Ok?
Mr. Bean: What do you mean ok, I thought it's a horror film. I didn't see any picture.

Friend: What CD did you took anyway?
Mr. Bean: CDCleaner.

9) Spelling lesson:
Mr. Bean's Son: Dad, what is the spelling of successful....is it one c or two c?
Mr. Bean: Make it three c to be sure!

Today is Xmas & Next week is New Year - 2009.

Know its abit late but still happy xmas to everyone.. Cheers =P

True Dickhead‏ (Funny !)

2008-12-20T08:18:00.004+08:00

Photographic evidence of where

the term Dickhead

came from !! XDXDXD

Enjoy Ur Weekend !!

Recession - Forecast, Read It !!

2008-12-18T23:50:00.003+08:00

Got this email from a colleague of mine. Sharing & hopefully it would wake those still dreaming ! *smacks*

Here goes :

Anyone game for this offer? He is former PA of Tun Mahathir.

The reality - Matthias Chang

Flip-flopping fairy tales: Malaysia will not have 3.9% growth in 2009
- Accepting reality is not pessimism, giving false hope is not optimism

By Matthias Chang,18 November 2008

Let´s put some money in our mouths. In the past I have challenged those who disagreed with me, that if they can prove me wrong, I would gladly pay them a RM5,000cash reward. There were no takers. None could prove me wrong!

In the past few days, the mass media have gone out of the way to interview politicians and the Governor of Bank Negara to project a rosy picture that somehow our economy will overcome the severe pain and disruption from the on-going global financial tsunami.

I am willing to take on anyone from the Badawi regime and Bank Negara that by H1 of 2009, the KLCI will drop below 700. If I am wrong in my analysis, I will pay the first five individuals from the saidBadawi regime and or Bank Negara the sum of RM5,000. These five individuals must within a week register at my website that they are
willing to take me on in this challenge.

They have to provide their full name and address in accordance with their NRIC/MyKad and their designation.

If they lose to me, they must pay me the same amount!

Fellow citizens, don´t listen to the Badawi regime´s fairy tales.

Prepare for the worst and the worst is yet to come. You owe it to your family. The best way to save our family and our country is to be prepared for all eventualities. We must tighten our belts, save for the stormy days that will surely come and not spend, spend as advocated by the Badawi regime´s ministers.

Use common sense. What do you tell your children as responsible parents when the family is going through hard times - spend, spend, spend or be thrifty, thrifty, thrifty?

Remember the flight safety rules when flying - when the oxygen mask falls from the overhead compartment, you are to wear the mask first before attending to your children. If you cannot save yourself,you are not in a position to save anyone. This is a fundamental principle of survival for everyone when a plane is about to crash!

Apply the same principle to economic woes and we will all be saved.

Here are my warnings for 2009:

By 2nd Half of next year, the automobile industry will go into a tailspin and suffer massive losses.

By 2nd Half of next year, credit card debts will soar, credit limits will be drastically reduced (worse than 1997/1998) and interest rates on outstanding will increase sharply. It is already happening!

By 2nd Half of next year, shipping rates will drop drastically and this is also happening. Our ports and shipping companies will suffer.

By 2nd Half of next year, our housing market bubble will burst not withstanding all the stimulus and pump-priming. Arab investors will not be coming. Dubai and Abu Dhabi is already in a financial /property gridlock! Why would they come here when they have to save their own asses?

By 2nd Half of next year, our exporters will be in tears, when Letters of Credit (L/Cs) will not be honoured and inventory stacks up at ports and in factory premises. Chinese exporters are already stipulating what LCs from which global banks will only be accepted.

By 2nd Half of next year, FELDA settlers will also be in tears. Having spent their windfall early this year (because of Badawi regime´s false optimism), their savings will be down and they will bleed.

By the 3rd Quarter of next year, corporate NPLs will shoot up!
Relaxing mark-to-market rules will not help.

Malaysia will have a huge immigration problem when these hardworking people are thrown out of work and have to compete with the swelling ranks of Malaysian unemployed.

In the meantime capital outflows will continue.

Let´s see whether the statement that Malaysia has more than enough reserves (since according to Bank Negara, we need only have US$30 to US$40 billion reserves) will provide sufficient confidence to foreigninvestors to continue to invest in Malaysia.

You can call the above observations - rubbish, pessimism, gloom anddoom etc. but that won´t change reality.

Pause and think. In my previous warnings and alerts, I have stated that by the latest - the 1st quarter of 2009, things will get ugly and scary!

If I am not right, why did the leaders of the just concluded G-20 summit in Washington, in their so-called "Action Plan" stipulated that their policies, remedies etc. must be implemented by the end of the 1st Quarter 2009?

My articles were all written BEFORE THE SUMMIT andobviously I have no control over the leaders of G-20.

So ask yourself -"Why Oh Why Must the First Action Plan Be Implemented by the First Quarter of 2009?

This is only the first tentative steps by the G-20 leaders and thereis no guarantee that the measures will work. The original Bretton Woods initiatives took almost two years to be formalised and put to work. There is no magic wand to be wielded by the leaders for instant cure. It will be a long hard grind. In the meantime, more shits will hit the ceiling fan. That is a given!

I hope the Badawi Regime and Bank Negara are not accusing the G-20 leaders and Obama´s financial and economic advisers as beingpessimists!

You be the judge!

-Credits to Mr Matthias Chang.

Links to his blog : Click here to view source

Lazy Guys - Beware (Comic Strip - Humour !)

2008-12-18T08:20:00.004+08:00

Have been slightly busy + quite lazy (as usual).

An interesting comic strip that i found entertaining... Just sharing with you guys...

Its a little small thou...So, Click to ENLAGRE & have a good laugh.... = )

Moral of the lesson : Guys - Dont be LAZY....(applies to me too... LOLZ XD)

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** If cant see - please enlarge. Thanks ! ~~

Vagina - [Yellow Jokes]

2008-12-16T22:35:00.001+08:00

Just a short line + a little humour... some of u who dont like it can skip the post... Thanks...

Lilly is at home when she hears someone knock at the
door..
She goes to the door and opens it to see a man
standing
there.

He asks the lady 'Do you have a vagina?'.
Shocked
she slams the door in disgust.

The next morning she hears a knock at the door and it
is
the same man and he asks the same question of the
woman
'Do you have a vagina?'. She slams the door
again.

Later that night when her husband gets home she tells
him
what has happened for the last two days. The husband
tells
the wife in a loving and concerned voice 'Honey I
am
taking tomorrow off to be home
just in case this guy shows up again'.

The next morning they hear a knock at the door and
both run
for the door. The husband says to the wife in a
whispered
voice 'Honey, I'm going to hide behind the
door and
listen and if it is the same guy I want you to answer
'yes' to the question because I want to see
where he
is going with it'. She nods yes to her husband
and
opens the door.

Sure enough the same fellow is standing there and asks
the
same question, ' Do you have a vagina?'.
'Yes' she says.

The man replies...
' Good! Would you mind telling your husband to
leave my wife's alone and start using yours!?'

*p/s - drop a comment if u find it offensive. tq.

Sardar Jee aka Mr.Singh - A few lines of humour

2008-12-11T10:30:00.001+08:00

Some jokes to lighten up ur day... =) Smile !

Boss: Where were you born?
Sardar: India ..
Boss: which part?
Sardar: What ' which part ' ? Whole body was born in India .

2 sardar were fixing a bomb in a car.
Sardar 1: What would you do if the bomb
explodes while fixing.
Sardar 2: Dont worry, I have one more.

Sardar: What is the name of your car?
Lady: I forgot the name, but is starts with ' T ' .
Sardar: Oh, what a strange car, starts with Tea. All cars that I know start with petrol.

Sardar joined new job. 1st day he worked till late evening on the computer. Boss was happy and asked what you did till evening.
Sardar: Keyboard alphabets were not in order, so I made it alright.

Museum Administrator: That ' s a 500-year-old statue u ' ve broken.
Sardar: Thanks God! I thought it was a new one.

At the scene of an accident a man was crying: O God! I have lost my hand, oh!
Sardar: Control yourself. Don ' t cry. See that man. He has lost his head. Is he crying?

Sardar: U cheated me.
Shopkeeper: No, I sold a good radio to u.
Sardar: Radio label shows Made in Japan but radio says this is ' All India Radio! '

NOW THE LAST TWO ULTIMATE:
In an interview, Interviewer: How does an electric motor run?
Sardar: Dhhuuuurrrrrrrrrr. .....
Inteviewer shouts: Stop it.
Sardar: Dhhuurrrr dhup dhup dhup...

Tourist: Whose skeleton is that?
Sardar: An old king ' s skeleton.
Tourist: Who ' s that smaller skeleton next to it?
Sardar: That was same king ' s skeleton when he was a child.

I got Tagged by Nicky !

2008-12-10T22:01:00.005+08:00

Okie. Firstly i don like being tagged. Like Nicky said - being tagged is like being struck by a plunger in the head comin from nowhere.

Illustration taken from Nicky's blog. Credits to her.
(the thing sticking at the the head? The PLUNGER)

So back to the questions:

1. Do u think u r hot?

Nope - Definately not XD. (Ppl who are stupid don admit they are stupid rite? XD XD)

2. Upload ur favourite picture of urself.

Only presentable pix i have on my laptop - haiz

3. Why do u like that picture?
I don't - I was forced to. Don want to be a bad sport - so just uploaded it.(Next Q pls)

4. When was the last time u ate pizza?
Yesterday. 09.12.2008

5. The last song u'd listened to.
"Whatever you like" by T.I.

6. What are u doin now besides this?
Chatting on MSN, Checking out Innit post, Listening to song..... zzzz

7. What name do u prefer besides urs?
Daniel ? XDXD

8. Name 5 ppl u wanna tag.
- I rather not - Applying "What u do not wish ppl do to u, thou shall not do to others"

(i) Who is number 1?
- Does not apply

(ii) Who is number 3 having relationship with?
- Does not apply

(iii) Say somthing about no. 5.
- Does not apply

(iv) How about no. 2?
- Does not apply

(v) Who is no. 4?
- Does not apply.

Okie - Done... XD.

Cheers ppl - Will be updating another post bout humour tommorrow !

Out to seek my 'soul'...

2008-12-07T00:38:00.002+08:00

Just a short update...

Since i ve been rather emo these few days... thought it be gud to go out rather than staying at home...

So, went out jalan jalan with my fren, Alfred. Basically we had lunch at I-Dragon at Pavillion,window shopping, watch Twilight, shopping, had dessert at MOF & meet up with Shy, bought a few things, went yam cha & back home updating the posting...

Did feel slightly better but still confused minds & heavy hearts... been thinkin again as i alwiz do... tried to seek for guidance & motivation...

Perhaps I indeed find something that might spark my interest & passion in the small seemingly routine things in life. My fren just came back from his holiday in Japan.
During our yam cha session, he actually updated me loads about his recent trip to Tokyo, Osaka & Hiroshima.

Of course he enjoyed himself during the 2 weeks plus holiday. But apart from the fun, he did relate how different Japan is different to this place we call home. Many many things that really makes us / rather myself ashamed to be actually proud of ourselves...

Starting from the much much much developed, systematic, developed infrastructure... to the mentality of its people... the education system.... & more importantly the attitude... Of course, the Japanese are not perfect & everything...

Its just that sometimes we tend to feel to satisfied too easily... Been too long in our comfort zone... Too arogant to seek guidance... Too egotistic to admit our wrongs...

In the many things he said... a few things left quite an impact in me... Perhaps I should 're-motivate' myself basing on the things he told me...?

I am going thru a whole new thinking process & trying to put it into actions...

Hopefully, yes... with high hopes - my journey to seek for my wondering 'soul' starts... Wish me all the best ppl !

*** SPARTAN spirit - Where are u?! ****

Me again - Ranting !

2008-12-05T15:07:00.007+08:00

Finally my exams are finished.

But i don fell happy even through i should be feeling that way. The "I Feel Good" feeling is just not there.... instead i feel so un-spirited. Like a soul that for a holiday, leaving the the empty "shell" behind, my body..... bla bla bla....

Oh, for those who were wondering if I hit my sales target last month. The answer is " YES !"... Was happy for the last few days of November... But then came December... emoness & xienzness strikes again....

I m starting to suspect I am getting to feel the stress from work - sales target. I know i m suppose be whack myself & psycho myself into believing that I can do it.

But this time around - It just didnt work this time ( Maybe i just didnt try so hard to try to fool myself?? ) This is how i feel : I feel i CANT hit the target. I feel since I CANT hit the target - I got no motivation to pick up the phone & make those bloody calls. Not sure - lots of stuff going in my head right now. There could be so much at stake... Next year appraisal could be affected & very likely will be because this December month.

I feel like blaming others... but who the hell do i start from. Or is it just me - not believing in myself.

Where is my zeal... My passion... WTF !!

Poems written by husband to wife‏ [Sacarstic]

2008-11-30T11:24:00.006+08:00

** P/S ** - Poems not wrote by me... Pls skip this post if you find it offensive ya... Cheers !!

I wrote your name on sand it got washed.

I wrote your name in air, it was blown away.

Then I wrote your name on my heart & i got Heart Attack.

******

God saw me hungry, he created pizza.

He saw me thirsty, he created Pepsi.

He saw me in dark, he created light.

He saw me without problems, he created YOU.

******

Twinkle Twinkle little star

You should know what you are

And once you know what you are

Mental hospital is not so far.

******

The rain makes all things beautiful.

The grass and flowers too.

If rain makes all things beautiful

Why doesn't it rain on you?

******

Roses are red, Violets are blue

Monkeys like u should be kept in zoo.

Don't feel so angry you will find me there too

Not in cage but laughing at you.

******

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Hiroshima & Nagasaki - Then & Now !!!

2008-11-24T21:29:00.018+08:00

Almost another email - but i thought the pictures were pretty impressive. August 6 -Hiroshima and Nagasaki -1945

Then

& Now!!!!

AMAZING RIGHT??

Goes to show that no sometimes even the worst can be changed for something better !!

Strive & alwayz stay postive

[Never argue with children] - From Email

2008-11-22T13:45:00.003+08:00

Sharing an email i got recently. Hope it brings some smile to your faces. Everybody's like so stress - so cheer up !!

1. My 4 year old son came screaming out of the bathroom to tell me he'd dropped his toothbrush in the toilet. So I fished it out and threw it in the garbage.

He stood there thinking for a moment, then ran to my bathroom and came out with my toothbrush.He held it up and said with a charming little smile, "We better throw this one out too then, 'cause it fell in the toilet a few days ago.

2. A little boy got lost at the YMCA and found himself in the women's locker room.When he was spotted, the room burst into shrieks, with ladies grabbing towels and running for cover.

The little boy watched in amazement and then asked, "What's the matter, haven't you ever seen a little boy before?"

3. A little girl had just finished her first week of school. "I'm just wasting my time," she said to her mother."I can't read, I can't write and they won't let me talk!"

4. A little girl was talking to her teacher about whales.The teacher said it was physically impossible for a whale to swallow a human because even though it was a very large mammal its throat was very small.

The little girl stated that Jonah was swallowed by a whale. Irritated, the teacher reiterated that a whale could not swallow a human, it was physically impossible.The little girl said, "When I get to heaven I will ask Jonah".

The teacher asked, "What if Jonah went to hell?" The little girl replied, "Then you ask him".

5. The children had all been photographed, and the teacher was trying to persuade them each to buy a copy of the group picture." Just think how nice it will be to look at it when you are all grown up and say, 'There's Jennifer, she's a lawyer,' or 'that's Michael. He's a doctor.'"

A small voice at the back of the room rang out, "And there's the teacher. She's dead

6. The children were lined up in the cafeteria of a Catholic elementary school for lunch. At the head of the table was a large pile of apples. The nun made a note, and posted on the apple tray: "Take only ONE. God is watching."

Moving further along the lunch line, at the other end of the table was a large pile of chocolate chip cookies.

A child had written a note, "Take all You want. God is watching the apples!"

7. A kindergarden teacher at age 30 was talking to the children seated on the floor around her, absentmindedly she removed her glasses to clean them."

Wow, Miss Collins!" one child exclaimed. "You look really different without your glasses on !"Another child piped up, "I bet she looks different when she takes her teeth out, too!"

-= THE END =-

Just an Update for Myself

2008-11-21T22:34:00.004+08:00

This posting is more like a personal diary. Been a while since i last posted anything here.

Been lazy & busy & didnt really have the "inspiration" to write.LOL

First things first, I ve officially managed to submit both of my coursework assignments. It seemed forever for me to finish, partly also becuz i kept on procastinating the task till about 72 hours before dateline. Anyway - I seriously glad & relief that its done but wont hope much for the marks I ll be getting from lecturer.

And if you guys wanted to know bout work? It kind of sucks ... haha... but i don feel particuliarly upset or down... I guess I kind of physco myself into trying to think positive. And it does works - *smiles*. Not sure if current economy situation is the main factor or if its just the year end timing that resulted in everyone's slum performance lately.

Oh well... working life has gotten more busy. Since sales not so gud, I m trying harder & so are the rest of the team. Its kind of like a war zone... hard for me to describe! But in a way, it adds a little spice in the usual routine job.

Personal life wise, I guess for now - its an trial for me to exercise the virtue or patience. Waiting & just hoping - wishful thinking... But anyway, lots of things turn out the way it should as time goes by. I ll just wait and see..Hohoho.

Actually recently had the reflection & doing some thinking like i had last time. And its back again - be writing more on that later on about that.

For now, its been quite tiring. Time for me to catch some sleep... ZZZ

I m Happy !

2008-11-09T23:51:00.008+08:00

Been happy recently.

Its been bubbling to come out - the smiles, the grin & the laughter.

This feeling is so abstract for me to discribe yet so real, satisfying yet its meaning cannot fully be discribe using words. Yeah - thats the feeling. U'll know what I'm talking about if ur happy rite now : )

Like this DOG - YEAH !

Some of my frenz asked y I am so happy. I told them : ' I don't know - I just feel happy. '
I've been totally honest with them - I myself cant figured out y.

Nothing spectacular really happen - I didnt strick lottery / do Exceptionally well in work. In fact - I didnt hit my target last month - was only 79.9% percent...lolz...
I decided to shift my focus & change my attitudes.
Trying to be more positive & focusing on things that matter to me currently - things in the future can be worried later on.

Actually my frenz have helped me a way bit (unknownly)- a smile is contagious, just that smile you never know could go a long way to brighten up another person's day.

I felt their happiness - whether be when they managed to achieve what they aspired & worked hard for; sweetness & joyfulness of a lovey dovey couple or when frenz get togehter to celebrate an occasion that matters much to u.

I choose not to be selfish - I want everyone to lift up their heads & show their smile & striving to be positive & stay happy.

Happiness is so abstract isn't it ?

Engrish - Enjoy !!

2008-10-24T11:07:00.029+08:00

Been back from my short break - Kind of very lazy to blog... But neway, came accross this email that my fren sent. Thought that i Just share around... So everyone - SMILE & be Happy...

I'm Happy ^ ^

Random post..

2008-10-24T01:12:00.003+08:00

Another random post.

Busy husle & busle of life. When u really take time to ponder over matters - when u start doing the thinking. You start to somehow discern that you do have needs & feelings & wants & emotions.

How am I feeling right now? Not a new feeling to me - not really emo / down. But close to that, however still able to rasionalize & can be easily push aside if i choose to do so...

Things changed...I changed too - Minor or perhaps drastic - I myself wouldn't really know either. For gud or for the worst? Cant really tell...

Perhaps I am just thru the down phrase in life's cycle.

Or perhaps I just need to take some time off to relax & leave everything for a few days.

I took a few days off - so, we'll see how it turns out after this short 'relaxation'

Coming recession - Brace urself...

2008-10-21T22:15:00.004+08:00

Just thought of sharing abit with you guys.

Got a email from working assoc.

BUSINESS SUPPORT & PLANNING
BUSINESS BANKING

Here goes.

Recession is coming ... make your own judgment, don't panic !! Do what is wise.
The recession looks very eminent.. It is really time to take pro active steps to avoid a painful time in the next two years which is how long the recession is expected to last.

Suggestions:

1. Don't take any loans, buy homes, properties with loans, or even cash. Keep as much cash as possible.
* Or putting it cash in bank account but redrawable easily.
2. Pay off as much of personal loans, private loans, as debt collection will be hastened.
3. Sell any stocks you can even at lower prices. (Maybe not so relevant)
4. Take money off from Trust Funds. (Maybe not so relevant)
5. Don't believe in huge sales forecast from customers, be extremely prudent, lowest inventories, reduce liabilities.
6. Don't invest in new capital.
7. If you are selling homes/ properties/ cars , do it now, when you can get good prices, they are going to fall.
8. Don't invest in new business proposals.
9. Cancel holiday plans using credit cards. (Does not apply if ur loaded)
10. Don't change jobs, as companies will retrench based on 'last in first out'.

Stay cool, wait, and if you took all of the above actions and more, you probably will be better off then many.

This is not a rumor. Bear Stearns is the first of many banking and financial institutions that will start falling in the not too future. If Bear Stearns can fall, so can JP Morgan, Citibank, HSBC, and the whole world.

US economy falls, the rest will crumble. India and all those self economies will be the most protected, but not gullible. Europe may be a little stronger, but not China , another giant! Malaysia will see significant impact

Fellow commorates - casulties along the way..

2008-10-10T23:07:00.004+08:00

Since starting working with my current company - without realizing, its been 14 months.

Coming to think of it... I am actually quite amazed with myself. Amazed that I am still here & surprised myself with results that previously thought quite impossible to achieve.

My Worklife = Fighting in the Vietnam War
My Duty / Job = Battle as a soldier

From day 1 till right now this very moment - I came to know many frenz. And over time, those that joined the same rank as myself have CAME & LEFT. "Casulties of War"

List of Honour - Fellow Comrades(Not so honourable for some)

Jeremy
Seri Devi
Shariza
Shikin
Rizal
Jun
Meira
Alex
Shalini
Hafiza
Sharm
Jasmine

Its been a journey & the experience gone thru with most of you guys have been something I will remember & really treasure.

Actually, owing many ppl gratitude & thanks for being able to be here.

THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

"T-Shirt" by Shontelle

2008-10-07T22:21:00.007+08:00

A song that i ve been listening to quite often... Not like really really great but quite good.

For those who wanna sing along - lyrics at the bottom.

T-Shirt

ohh, let me tell you no.
oh baby.
trying to decide, trying to decide if i, really wanna go out tonight.
i never use to go out without you, i'm not sure i remember how to.
i'm gonna be late gonna be late but, all my girls gonna have to wait cause, i don't know if i like my outfit.
i tried everything in my closet.

nothing feels right when im not with you, sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choos.
taking them off cause i feel a fool, trying to dress up when im missing you.
ima step out of this lengerie, curl up in a ball with something Hanes.
in that i lay, with nothing but your t-shirt on.
oh, with nothing but your t-shirt on.

hey, gotta be strong gotta be strong but i'm, really hurting now that you're gone.
i thought maybe i'd do some shopping, but i didn't get past the door and, now i dont know now i dont know if i'm, ever really gonna let you go and i, couldnt even leave my appartment.
im stripped down torn up about it.

nothing feels right when im not with you, sick of thisdress and these jimmy choos.
taking them off cause i feel a fool, trying to dress up when im missing you.
ima step out of this lengerie, curl up in a ball with something hanes.
in that i lay, with nothing but your t-shirt on.
(i'm all by myself with)with nothing but your t-shirt on
ohhh, with nothing but your t-shirt on
(cause i miss you, cause i miss you) with nothing but your t-shirt on.
(cause i miss you baby)

trying to decide, trying to decide if i, really wanna go out tonight.
i couldn't even leave my appartment, i'm stripped down torn up about it.

nothing feels right when im not with you, sick of this dress and these jimmy choos.
taking them off cause i feel a fool, trying to dress up when im missing you.
ima step out of this lengerie, curl up in a ball with something hanes.
in that i lay.
hey hey, nothing feels right when im not with you.
sick of this dress and these jimmy choos.
taking them off cause i feel a fool, trying to dress up when im mising you.

ima step out of this lengerie, curl up in a ball with something hanes.
in that i lay, with nothing but your t-shirt on.
in nothing but your t-shirt on(2x)

***Shontelle, the 23 year-old Bajan (she grew up with Rihanna!) singer-songwriter,
*** Top 40 single “TShirt” in USA.

*** P/S - Can choose to stop the song if its too laggy / u don like the song. TQ

Unsatisfied?

2008-10-06T19:24:00.003+08:00

Been very very lazy to update my blog recently...

Had quite a number of outings & had some inspiration...

But just didnt seem to interest to blog...

Anyhow... Been surfing the net & in some career forum recently (www.lowyat.net)

Kind of regret going in there... there were this tread about what job can earn u 10k before u hit the age of 30? Another thread was basically about ppl sharing their pay & others commenting...

Just to share what i gleen from that thread... (In summary...)

Legal jobs to earn 10k by the age of 30.

1. People in the O & G industry - (Esp. those working offshore)
FYI - Pipeline engineer - 18k at the age of 28
2. People who are in the marine line (Even normal cabin crew)
FYI - MISC Crew Junior 6K plus
3. People who work in the air (Esp - Pilots)
FYI - 2nd in line pilot (AirAsia) earns at least 7k (achievable by age 25)
4. Sales (The top 10 - 15% in the company)
E.g. Insurance, Real Estate, MLM even... zzzz
5. Free-lancers ( Those with Particuliar skill)
E.g. Programming, Music, Consultancy....

& Many more....

So easy meh? That means the people in general are a failure?

However based on Inland Revenue Report - 38,000 out of 10.5 million person (0.36%) is for the top tax bracket (those making RM250k and above.)

Facts or Just 'Blow Water' - Decide for yourself....

But sometimes the main point is just satisfied & grateful...

"Richer getting richer; Poor getting poorer" - Look around before complaining !!

Updates !!

2008-09-28T14:22:00.003+08:00

Hello people...

Been busy & quite lazy to update my blog... feeling a bit guilty bout that XD

Oh well.. past week was been all bout sales target... tried to adjust & not to focus everything on sales... not easy thou... last week felt that i could not archieve target for this month... thought it was a gud time to re-adjust how i looked at things...(but with not much progress) - feeling of downness & all the emo-ness started to show itself..

But things didnt turn out so bad as i expect... I got another personal record. Thanks to Flamingo International College. Really unexpected - quite happy & unbelievable for myself... Guess I am still on track to hit this month's target.. !!!

Sometimes in life - surpises can be delightful...

Oh ya... the advertisement sample for Plaza Low Yat been up on the web. Click here.

Been out hanging out with frenz too.. thank you for your support guys...

Speed Traps

2008-09-24T00:00:00.002+08:00

Dear All,

Too wu liao so posted this forwarded email that i got from my colleague.. Hopefully it ll be helpful for you guys..

PLUS North Bound (ke Utara)

*Under a bridge at about 456km, Sg Buloh junction.
*Under a bridge at about 459km, Bukit Lanjan interchange.
*Under the overhead restaurant at Sg Buloh.
*Under the last bridge before Sg Besi toll at 309.2km.
*Under the bridge at 296.5km, Bangi junction.
*Under the newly constructed bridge at 289.0km, after Nilai North junction.
*Under the bridge at 286.5km, Nilai North junction.

PLUS South Bound (ke Selatan)
*Below signboard at about 454.6km and 455.2km, Sg Buloh layby.
*Under the bridge after Subang junction at 11.3km.
*Under the bridge at 22km, Bukit Lanjan junction.
*Under the bridge before Mint hotel, Sg Besi Toll. 80km/h only!
*Under the bridge at 302.8km, Kajang junction.
*About 1km south of Bangi junction, both south and north bound outer lanes
*At 296.5km and 297km, Bangi junction.
*Under the newly constructed bridge at 289.0km, before Nilai North junction.
*At 285.5km and 285.8km, Nilai North junction.
*On center divider at 251.8km and 253km after Senawang junction.
*After Alor Gajah junction at 213.9km, next to water theme park.
*Behind the right hand crash barrier at 198.4km.

Elite Central Link East/North Bound
*On left hand side at 4.8km after Batu Tiga/Shah Alam exit
*Under the overhead restaurant at USJ/Hicom junction about 8.5km. 90km/h zone!
*Below the bridge before USJ/Hicom junction at 10.5km.

Elite Central Link West/South Bound
*Under the overhead restaurant at USJ/Hicom junction about 8.5km. 90km/h zone!
*Below the bridge before USJ/Hicom junction at 10.5km.
*After exit from KLIA toll to the airport, below Jalan Pekeliling flyover. 90km/h

NKVE East/North Bound
*300m before Jalan Duta toll, 60km/h!
*Behind crash barrier on the left when going towards Jalan Duta toll, at 24.9km, 80km/h!
*Below bridge at Damansara Junction, 17.5km

NKVE West/South Bound
*Behind crash barrier on the left when leaving Jalan Duta toll from KL, at 25.3 km and 25.7km, 80km/h!
*From Jln Duta, below the bridge, 23km, 80km/h zone!
*From Jln Duta, at the underpass at Sg Buloh Y-junction, 22km.
*Behind crash barrier at Damansara Junction, 17.7km and 16.8km
*Below railway bridge at 11.2km
*Under the bridge at Shah Alam junction.

Kesas East Bound
*Under the bridge at 44.8km, downhill run after Puchong junction.

Kesas West Bound
*At Sg Besi side of East Bound Toll. Kuala LumpurCity
*Jalan Duta; below the flyover at the Damansara junction, 70km/h zone.

Klang
*Dual carriageway between Klang and Port Klang. Towards Klang direction, at about 13km mile stone. 70km/h only!

East Coast
*Road sign at Karak highway is inadequate especially at Y junction; if you are unfamilar, go slow.
*East bound, downhill run after Raub junction.
*Maran, 60km/h zone.
*Paya Bungor, 70km/h zone.

SPEED TRAPS IN JOHOR - South Bound
*Tangkak junction.
*Under the bridge after Yong Peng

North junction
*at 97.3km.
*Ayer Hitam junction.
*Sedenak junction.

SPEED TRAPS IN PERLIS, KEDAH AND PENANG
North Bound
*Around Ayer Hitam in 60km/h zone.
*Before Perwaja Steel.
*Sg Petani junction.
*Between Seberang Jaya junction and Sg Dua Toll.
*PenangBridgeat island end.Speed limit 80km/h.

South Bound
*PenangBridgeisland end. Speed limit 80km/h.
*About 2km before Juru Toll Speed limit 90km/h.

SPEED TRAPS IN PERAK
North Bound
*Under the bridge at 197.1km and 198.8km, after Kamunting Junction.
*Under the bridge at 204.3km, after Kamunting Junction.
*Under the bridge at 208km, before Kamunting Junction.
*Under the bridge at 214.8km, before Kamunting junction.
*Ipoh Vista Point at about 263km. Speed limit 80km/h.
*Under the bridge at 271km, Ipoh North Junction.
*Under the bridge at 274.4km, Ipoh South Junction.
*Under the bridge at 286.9km, Simpang Pulai Junction.
*Under the bridge at 296km, Gopeng Junction.
*Under the bridge at 352.6km, after Sungkai Junction.
*Under the bridge at 353km, Sungkai Junction.
*Under the bridge at 373km, Slim River Junction.

South Bound
*Under the bridge at 199km, before Kamunting junction.
*Under the bridge at 241.9km, at Kalau Kangsar junction.
*Under the sign post at 296.1km, before Gopeng Junction.
*Under the bridge at 297km, at Gopeng Junction.
*Under the bridge at 300km, after Gopeng junction.
*Under the bridge at 308.6km, after Gopeng junction.
*Under the bridge at 372.6km, at SlimRiverjunction.

Happy Traveling & basically slow down when u reach a bridge :)

Top 3 Songs - My Pick

2008-09-21T11:52:00.003+08:00

Just uploaded a playlist.

Might make blog abit laggy & take longer time than usual to load.

1. Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You.

2. Coldplay - Viva la Vida

3. Chris Daughtry - What about now

Like to hear this few songs recently - Just don know why.

Secondhand Serenade is the pick of the day for me.

Do check out the meaning for each of the song title & lyrics... Some are pretty meaningful.

Feel free to leave any suggestions / feeback in my c-box. Appreaciate it & will try to make the necessary improvement.

Please ENJOY !!!

** P/S - If it makes loading this blog laggy or too long to load - please pause the song. TQ.

Happy day - Milestone

2008-09-17T21:06:00.003+08:00

Today's throat hurts real bad - bad sore throat - felt like i was going to have high fever the nite before.

But today is a relatively happy day for me...

Just wanted to share the joy everyone... To those who are feeling down or tengah emo-ing...

In my 14 months of working in this company, this is the highest single sales that I have got !!! Thanks to Plaza Low Yat which happens to be client. I will post up the link of the advertisment when i have the chance.

So happy, might not be a big thing for other account managers - but it does marks great significance to me & a milestone too...

Really help alot as I ve been kind of worried bout my sales this month ever since drastic increase of my Sales Target. Enough said sales & work which may bored some of you all to death.

Just a word of encouragement to those out there feeling kind of disappointment or down.

Life is never easy - nothing is never easy at first. If you want something work hard, fail? Get up !! Work harder & one day.... perhaps you'll realize its easier than you think...

Black Out - Again ?!

2008-09-14T23:36:00.010+08:00

Haiz... no eletricity again....This has been the 3rd o 4th time that black out has occured in my area already.

Thank goodness my laptop is running on its reserve battery, else I would be unable to post this blog.

Well, even thou today is suppose to be Tanglong festival & everybody is suppose to enjoy the atmosphere + looking at the dark sky with the big round full moon + enjoying mooncake with family. But, still so so so pathetic to me.

Can hardly see things... Tripping over things... Without the fan working sleeping tonite will be so hard - with no wind & all the stupid mosquito sure keep on kacau... arghhh !!

Wonder what is happening with TNB - whats the point increasing the tariff & everything while the services offered by them are getting from bad to worst. Making people's life more inconvienient rather than brighting it up as they claim.

Here are some of the shoots i took using my camera...

Just for you gus to picture the situation. Forgive me for my lousy shoots.

My Room

Using laptop without the lights

Toilet

Living room / Hall

Street outside my House

Wonder why the steet lights are still working... Hmmm...

Please bear with me - Ranting to release frustration - Been quite easily frustrated easily.

Liverpol ( H ) - Man Utd ( 2 - 1 )

2008-09-13T22:19:00.007+08:00

Liverpool ( Home )
V.S.
Manchester United

Today's game was such a disappointment.

Liverpool(H) v.s. Manchester United.

Final Score
2 - 1.

It was a good start with Berbatov passing thru a supervb goal to Tevez who calmly finished with a nice shoot.

Later on, due to some messy defending by the defense of Man Utd - Van Der Sar's supposely save hit the shine of Wes Brown & an own goal?! . WTH. anyone. Score drawed at 1-1 till half time.

After the own goal by Wes Brown...

Not much clear cut chances for both sides. Anyway, with some really good passing & teamwork by Liverpool - Ryan Babel made it 2-1 to seal the game in the 77th minute.

To make things worst apart from the defeat - Man Utd picked up 3 yellow & a red - courteousy of Vidic clumsy tackle.

Thats about all I will write to bored you guys... Wonder how I am going to go office on Monday. Malunya - should not have taunt my 'Liverpool' colleague - Oh no... arghh...

Self Examination - Part 1

2008-09-12T00:14:00.006+08:00

Being arrogant or just purely moody??

This is question I myself have no answer too... Only ppl who know me, ppl who interact with me will know.

Izzit because when i have problems - I do not smile. Do ppl think i am trying to act cool?? Gotta admit that I am alwiz sub-Consciously trying to control what i say / do...

Is being sacratic a form of pride? Do i think that i know all? Do i feel that i am better than others? Really worthy of self - examination. Is silence alwiz the best solution to be neutral?

Soooooo many things to think about? Do i just have a gloomy / negative outlook towards the future or whatever i confront.

This posting is just for me to pour out some feeling that has been trapped beneath & re-surfacing off & on. Sorry if i spreaded negative feelings to you readers.

Delicious@Bangsar Village - New Wing

2008-09-08T19:54:00.018+08:00

Sunday 7th Sept 2008.

Blogging bout food?? Not really like me... but anyways... after dinner at some chicken rice stall at Bangsar we decided to head on to Bangsar Village.

And we found DELICIOUS !!

I am no good at writing / describing, so i rather let the pictures do the talking.. keke..

Spoit with so many choices... Nice...

Check out the menu...

Everybody choosing what to have...

Photo of the Gals : (From Left) Jeniffer, Michelle, Shane Yee, Shenna & Ariel

Photo of the Guys : (From Left) Hareen, David & Me...
I'm no good at pictures... Keke

Here comes - DESSERT !!!

Ariel deciding which to eat from....

Nice & Yummmy...

Shane not getting enough of the Stawberry Chocolate Sundae.... ^ ^

Photo taken before going home... others off to get their car.

Really satisfying day... really enjoyed it...

And ya... lastly, thanks ARIEL for paying the bill.. keke..

Target Increased .... Again??!

2008-09-07T23:14:00.005+08:00

Been busy again.. all the routine cycle of my life...

Been stressful start of a month again. - September

Studies - 2 Sem started -
Wednesday - Intro to Marketing
Thursday - Fundemental of Management

Worst part is my target increase so much within this past 3-4 months.
Lets See.
Jan - Jun 08 = RM x
Jul 08 = RM x * 450 % !! ( The month the offered me to become a permanent staff )
Aug 08 = same as July.
Sept = Jul 08 Sales Target * 40 % = Haiz...

So you can imagine my stress level.... Will be blogging lesser from now on - but I will keep it update every 2 weeks at least.

Wish that i still can come out alive, ppl...

So long...

Last Few Days of August

2008-08-30T21:33:00.003+08:00

After putting so much effort in the past 30 days, finally the month of August has almost ended.

Final Exams of the Sem ended... Closing of the months business sales also was yesterday.

The final day of sales (Friday - 29th August) was really an exciting one. The previous day my sales was still trilling at 95 %, it could be easily be a case of so near yet so far. Like what happened last month.

Friday was reallly havoc for the whole sales team. Those that had achieved their target like my boss - Daryl could take it easy. August happens to be the month with the Highest Sales Target withing the whole year. Everybody struggling & striving their level best to try to bring in the remaining % in order to hit target.

The atmosphere was one of high tension. Everybody were on the phone, typing emails & checking for faxes. Every minute - every second counted. One could compared the office floor like a Brusa Malaysia where the shares were traded.

As for me, I was busy following up with customer. Chasing for pending payment, trying to make sure that advertisment were done on time. So rushing till no time to drink water & use the toilet. Things seemed to be OK after lunch. Guess what ?! My sales started coming in - & in & in & in.

Gosh - really amazed by how it actually happen. The undescripable feeling - feeling of happiness & estasy & excitement. I hit my target - wanted to celebrate & shout but restained so as to be considerate for the others who were still strugling.

In the meantime, our team was also neck to neck with Penang team in a competition. Stakes were really high - it was a competition of the higest percentage achieve as a group. We had 12 members in our team, Penang 5. Everybody kept on 'pumping' their sales in - the figures kept changing every 15 minute. It was Penang leading for a moment, we catched up & at some point of time - at par with each other.

Those moments were really 'gan zhiong' to the max. In the end - I also could not believe myself - I managed to put in 30% of my monthly sales target in a day ??!! But, the best thing that happened is that we managed to overtake the Penang team by a niche margin of 1.12%...

However, the month has not ended & I bet the whole team will keep our fingers cross & pray that our efforts do win us the competition.

Relieve after exam !!!

2008-08-21T17:56:00.002+08:00

Fuyoh... i feel so relieve while writing this blog.

Finally finish my last paper - Malaysian Studies. Oh well, basically it has been worrying me for quite a bit... like carryin a weight around during these 2 weeks.

Cant be really bothered whether i get good result anot - A 3.0 & I ll be please with myself. No expectations but cant be bothered - will see what comes out.

Hmmm... so now the next thing i ll need to be worrying is my sales target. So far - lets see - its 70 %, with 6 days more.

Really tension also but i really think scoring in exam is way alot harder than hitting sales target. Anyway, managed to get new time table from Jeff, my course consellor. Next Sem starts on 2nd Sept - one week breaks for me. Happy !

Off for futsal & yam cha with frenz later on.

New Camera + Busy Studying

2008-08-18T21:41:00.009+08:00

Past 1 week was really hectic !!!
Finally got a bit more time to write this post....

Believe it or not - I actually took 2 days off to study - 14th & 15th (Thursday & Friday). But, really needed that time off - else I would never have the time to study for Finance.

Thursday - Sleep, Eat, Study & Online. Frankly however - I don't really remember what i did that day. Its like that part of my memory being wipe out.

OK. So comes Friday - Its a boring day - Study, study ... study study... access my webmail from home too...

So Many Notes - Brother's Bed

More Notes - On My Bed As Well !

Deciding to put an end to this purposeless, unmeaningful process to an end.

Told myself - "Thats it lah... thats all for today folks.... To be continued another day... "
Called my friend up - asked where he was - He said "Low Yat" & I thought of DIGITAL CAMERA.

So...to cut all the non-essential details out - I finally got my own CAMERA -
CANON PowerShoot A720 IS

Overall quite satisfied with it - expect for the size... But what to do.. cannot expect everything perfect within such a limited budget.

PowerShoot A720 IS - Taken Using My Sony Ericsson HP

Helping someone harder than imagined.

2008-08-10T19:46:00.002+08:00

This post is published as I am diappointed with my cousin.

She might think that she is old enuf to decide for herself what to do. But, what she really did yesterday & today is trully very irresponsible & immature.

She shifted out from home last yr. Since then, she has been working in malls & doing all kind of odd jobs. I cant recall how many jobs from that time till now she has changed. But for that, I don blame her - I was like her too... doing my jobs to keep surviving thru my school days.

So this is what happen, seeing that she has been jobless for quite some time - I decided to ask her if she wanted to work for my company on a part time basis. So after giving her the details, she was alright with it. Basically - the job required her to sit in the office from 9-6 during the weekends calling out to some members asking them to update their email. How bad could that be compare to the job which she last worked, standing there from 10am - 10pm & paid almost the same.

Anwyay, i double confirmed with her the friday day before. "So you will be coming rite tmr? Work starts at 9 & by 6 you can chau..." She replied, "Can ! No problem...."

Saturday morning - About 7 AM - she called telling me that she was tired & wanted to sleep abit longer - would be coming in late. I said give her 1 half hour extra & she should be in to work. So, I went to work & with the others team members. It was 10.30 - She should be here by now but no phone call no sms. I guessed that she muz have overslept and I was right, by 11.30 I got a sms from her saying that she just woke up. So OK lor... told her to come in tommorrow & please be on time.

Sunday morning - About 8AM - she miss called her. So i called her back - thinking that she had reached the office earlier. But that was not it, she told me " We are on our way out - so very likely will reach in another 1 half hour ..." In my heart i was like - WTF ! & what's with 'THEY'?

She said she brought along another 3 frenz with her. Supressing the anger in me... i told her... what is all this about .... very very pissed out with her.

I told her only staff can enter the office. So, she said... y you didnt tell me... so what are they going to do when i working? I said... maybe you can ask them go time square first jalan jalan lor... they she sweared at me... I was really controling myself.. Thank goodness she was not in front of me... else i would have slap the shit out of her.

Well, to me.. .this is like the chinese saying "Hao Sam Pei Lui Pek" or "The Dog That Bite Its Master"... Here i am trying to bloody help you but you do not have any discipline to wake up early, come on time. The way u're speaking to me is as though i force you to work here...

But this is too much... I guess this will be the last time. I am very disappointed but its to be expected when trying to helping someone who not willing to help themselves...

Busy Month

2008-08-07T20:39:00.002+08:00

This blog seems to be more like a diary than a place to pen down feelings into words...

Very busy month... Got no time to update blog... This month got exam summore...

I've got no motivation to study... GOD help me... 1 one week to go...

Will not be posting any new till end of August. Sorry guys...

Keep busy better than nothing to do at all.. xienz...

Last Day of July

2008-08-01T00:48:00.002+08:00

Its the last day of the month... Very stressful day... the 8 hours seem to pass very agonzingly....

The reason being, I could not managed to hit my sales target, just a thought when they gave the target. With a pat on my shoulder, 'All along you can do it what, this time no a problem for you...' (Refer to earlier posting for more details)

Oh well, since they have had such confidence in me - I'll just try my best i suppose. Calling... presenting our companies produce, seeking to generate leads....

During the last week, it was so near yet so far... 89% of total sales target & it was not moving at all. NOT at all.... Feeling kinna tired - I wasn't in a mood to try to get the remaining sales volumn in... seemingly impossible case...

On the last day - pressure mounted up but i guess it was a blessing that I wasnt the only one who have fail in our mission for the month.

But anyhow, its a new month... fresh start, new targets, time to refocus on priorities.

Motto for the month of August "I don't believe in destiny... Fate is created by my own hands ! "

Blogging like others...

2008-07-28T00:16:00.003+08:00

I am seriously amazed by how many people can write loads of topics in their blog.

Though being a 'busy' person... I somehow did managed to spent some time going thru random blogs... One blog linking to another...

Reading about others pouring out, ranting & opinions... neural topics... problems... interests... & many more...

Basically, i prefer read blogs in english...Please do not assume that i am a 'banana', its just that i enjoy reading in english - the language that i am more comfortable with.

Since i was going thru random blogs which feature a wide array of topics... There were some that were out right boring(no offence ya) & some which were very interesting...

It might be a very same topic / subject that 2 person are writing about... but gosh, they can be some many angles of seeing things.. so many viewpoints, so many opinioins... wonder where they really get the inspiration?? Comments, critism - some pure foolish / lame others reflect maturity & wisdom...

How i do wish i could write like them... such art of writing that make a reader addicted & without awareness of the passing of time. Hmmm... of course much reflecting about what i am writing right now might put you to sleep, like a hypnosis charm...

Hopefully some day I would be able to write like them... *Wishful thinking*

Vanity... & striving over nothing...

2008-07-26T16:00:00.000+08:00

Congrates to the dead,

Who had already died,

Rather than the living,

Who are still alive.

Much more better than both of them,

is the one -

who has not yet come to be,

who has not come to be in this world striving over nothing.

Reflection : Sometimes when you come to really think of it... Don even know why we actually put effort in certain things... But, in the end it returns to neil / nothing at all.

But, thats life is suppose... All but VANITY.

Thank you.

2008-07-24T00:31:00.000+08:00

This blog is in appreciate of my coursework who was really helpful assisting me completing my coursework on time. His name = Nicholas.

Really appreciate it - I would consider him as someone who is sincerely wanting to help & really mean what they say.

In comparision some who will not even reveal where they got the source of the material & lend me for reference. As though as if I am going to copy word for word other's people coursework.

Been really busy & tired for this week especially. Working & Assisgnments - month end pressure.

Thanks once again Nicholas. Finally i can say - what a relief, my Finance coursework is almost done !!

Glimer of Hope

2008-07-17T23:59:00.000+08:00

Things are starting to turn for the better...

Finally most of my coursework going to finish my today. At last, this sem take 3 subject.. down to one more last one - Finance, suan la - weekend only do.

I can re-confirm that i am the "last-minute" type. Not until last minute only will rush to finish what i am suppose to do. Sometimes i feel its better to set a dateline earlier for me - so that i am force to complete it.

And for my work - sales seems to be coming for encouraging this 2 days - yesterday & today. But, as everybody in the Sales Industry would agree with me - nothing in Sales in 100 %. You might hit 99% by middle of the month, but if you take things too easy or really SO SO unfortunate - might not even achieve that 1 more %.

My percentage as of Thursday (17 July 2008) is only 46% - I got to work harder !!!

Running a country? u meaning ... ruining it.

2008-07-15T22:34:00.000+08:00

I was lying on my bed... Thinking bout everything.. even thou i should be getting some rest.

Some how i just couldnt help but going online. Started chatting with a client of mine... it started off as a casual topic.

Before we knew it, it was about the political scence of our country. It is in such a sad state of a affair - the more you think of it, the more depressing it becomes.

I guess everything started since this year 2008 general election. From then on, it was no turning back. Opposition party against the federal government. Inter party also fighting... Not just one race... everybody also like that...

What is this all about??! To all those politician out there - ask you self sincerely - Are you all not satisfied with all the riches that you have gain so far? Do you not know the word 'SHAME' ? What is all these fighting? Claiming to doing this for the good of the citizens... We as normal people -from a laymens point of view - frankly speaking... nothing.

From the current events, alot of attack on political figures personal life. Is that not a side track from the real issue. We don give a damn what happens in their personal life, their family or the past. We do not wish for luxury, unlike some greedy ppl. What we wish for is a peaceful & relative easy going life.

I for 1 cannot say that i am directly / really affected by the recent price hike in rice / fuel. But i really do feel pity for those whose who are of the lower income. I remember less than a year ago... the cheapest rice you could get in the hypermarket was RM16 - Now? Its RM32... 100 percent increase wei... & as for the fuel hike... i need say anything more.. everybody knows....

To those out there fighting among yourselves... do they hear us suffering? Do they feel what we are feeling...? i seriously doubt it...

I guess no matter how much v sigh - matters wont not change for the better , will it?

Going to Get Sick

2008-07-15T21:57:00.001+08:00

Gosh... I m getting sick...

Over-worked maybe... I realize that i m not gud at handling stress as well as thought...

How ah... Should get some rest...

Something Malaysian's Should Know

2008-07-12T23:11:00.002+08:00

WHAT IS NEVER MENTIONED IN Mainstream Media like NST/TheStar/ Utusan/BHare these facts....Malaysian PerCapita Income USD 5000 VS Singaporean PerCapita Income USD 25000

Further The Star made a comparison of prices in Thailand , Singaporeand Indonesia . For Thailand it is quoted at RM3.90/liter, however arethey aware that in Thailand new cars are cheaper than Malaysia byRM10,000?

They pay only one life time for their driving license? Norenewal fee after that? Also that goes for road tax as well? And doTheStar also aware that you can drive all the way from Hadtyai toBangkok on a six lane highway without paying any Tolls ??!! THESTAR

Whereas here in Malaysia you have to pay yearly renewal for road tax,driving license and TOLLS, TOLLS, TOLLS!!!！For Singapore how can you quote RM 5.20? Please quote in SingaporeDollars because they are earning in Sing Dollars. You might as well sayEuropeans are paying RM10/liter. RM5.20/liter = Sing $ 2.20/liter,still cheaper than Malaysia in view of fact that Singapore is not acrude oil exporter. Are you saying that you fill up petrol in Singaporeby paying Ringgit?

In economy, dollar to dollar must be compared as apple to apple. Notcomparing like durian in M'sia is much cheaper than durian in Japan !! Ofcourse-lah, Japan is not durian producer!!! Comparing Malaysian durian with Thailand durian make more sense!!

Now, let us compare the price with OIL PRODUCING countries:

>>> UAE RM1.19/litre

>>> Eygpt RM1.03/litre

>>> Bahrain RM0.87/litre

>>> Qatar RM0.68/litre

>>> Kuwait RM0.67/litre

>>> Saudi Arabia RM0.38/litre

>>> IranRM0.35/litre

>>> Nigeria RM0.32/litre

>>> Turkmenistan RM0.25/litre

>>> Venezuela RM0.16/litre

>>> MALAYSIA RM2.70/litre RM 2.70!!!

Individual perspective: As of last month a Toyota Vios would 'cause a damage' of about RM89,000. In the international market, a Toyota Vios is about USD 19,000USD 19,000 = RM 62,700 (using the indicative rates of USD 1 = RM 3.30)That makes Malaysian Vios owners pay an extra RM 26,300.

This RM 26,300 should be cost of operations, profit and tax because thetransportation costs have been factored in to the USD 19,000.RM 26,300/ RM625 petrol rebate per year translates to a Vios being usedfor 42.08 years.I do understand that the RM 625 is a rebate given by the government, but it also means that one has to use the Vios for42.08 years just to make back the amount paid in taxes for the usage ofa foreign car. Would anyone use any kind of car for that long?

Now with these numbers in front of us, does the subsidy sound like a subsidy ordoes it sound like a penalty? This just seems to be a heavy incrementin our daily cost of living as we are not only charged with high cartaxes but also with a drastic increase in fuel price.

I urge all Malaysians to join me inanalyzing the situation further. Car taxation is government profit, fuel sales is Petronas' (GLC) profitwhich also translates into government profit. The government mayridicule us Malaysians by saying look at the world market and fuelprice world wide. Please, we are Malaysians, we fought of the British,had ainternational port in the early centuries (Malacca), home to a raciallymixed nation and WE ARE NOT STUPID!!!

We know the international rates are above the USD 130/barrel. Weunderstand the fact that the fuel prices are increasing worldwide andwe also know that major scientist are still contradicting on why thisphenomenon is happening. Some blame Bush and his plunders around theworld and some blame climate change and there are others which saypetroleum 'wells' are getting scarce.

Again we go back to numbers to be more straight forward.

1 barrel = 159 liters x RM2.70/liter = RM 429 or USD 134。 On 1 hand, weare paying the full cost of 1 barrel of crude oil with RM2.70 per literbut on the other hand the crude oil only produces 46% of fuel.

Msia sells crude oil per barrel at USD130 buys back Fuel per barrel atUSD134. And not forgetting, every barrel of fuel is produced with 2barrels of crude oil.

>>> if 1 barrel crude oil = produce 46% fuel (or half of crude oil), therefore >>> 2 barrel crude oil = approximately 1 barrel fuel

In other words, each time we sell 2 barrels of crude oil, equivalentlywe will buy back 1 barrel of fuel. Financially, Malaysia sell 2 barrelcrude oil @ USD 130/barrel = USD 260 = RM 858 then, Malaysia will buyback fuel @ USD 134/barrel = RM 442/barrel Thus, Malaysia earn netextra USD 126 = RM 416 for each 2 barrel of crude sold/exported vsimported 1 barrel of fuel !!!>>> (USD 260-134 = USD 126 = RM416)

So where this extra USD 126/barrel income is channeled to by Malaysian Govt????????

Another analysis:>>> 1 barrel crude oil = 159 liters. >>> 46-47% of a barrel of crude oil = fuel that we use in our vehicles. >>> 46% of 159 = 73.14 liters. >>> @ RM 2.70/liter x 73.14 liter = RM197.48 of fuel per barrel of crude oil.

This is only 46% of the barrel, mind you. Using RM 3.30 = USD 1, we getthat a barrel of crude oil produces USD 59.84 worth of petrol fuel (46%of 1 barrel). USD 59.84 of USD 130/barrel turns out to be 46% of abarrel as well.

Another 54% = bitumen, kerosene, and natural gases and so many more.And this makes a balance of USD 70.16 that has not been accounted for.

So this is where I got curious. Where is the subsidy if we are paying46% of the price of a barrel of crude oil when the production ofpetrol/barrel of crude oil is still only 46%?

In actual fact, we still pay for this as they are charged in the formsof fuel surcharge by airlines and road taxes for the building of road(because they use the tar/bitumen) and many more excuse charging us butlet us just leave all that out of our calculations

As far as I know, only the politicians who live in Putrajaya and comefor their Parliament meetings in Kuala Lumpur (approximately 60+ km)are the ones to gain as they claim their fuel and toll charges from themoney of the RAKYAT's TAX

It is so disappointing to see this happen time and time again to theMalaysian public, where they are deceived by the propaganda held by the politicians and the controls they have over the press.

Which stupid idiot economist equates rebates for rich or poor with thecc of the vehicles? An average office clerk may own a second hand 1300ccproton Iswara costing $7,000 (rebate = $625) while the Datuk's childrencan own a fleet of 10 new cars of BMW, Audi and Volvo all less than2000cc costing $2 millions and get a total rebate of $625 x 10 =$6,250! Wow what kind of economists we are keeping inMalaysia....wonder which phD certificate that they bought from...

Misleading concept of Subsidy:

The word 'subsidy' has been brandished by the government as if it has so generously helped the rakyat and in doing so incurred losses.This simple example will help to explain the fallacy:'津

>>> Example: Ahmad is a fisherman. He sells a fish to you at $10 which is below themarket value of $15. Let's assume that he caught the fish from theabundance of the sea at little or no cost. Ahmad claims that since themarket value of the fish is $15 and he sold you the fish for $10, he hadsubsidised you $5 and therefore made a loss of $5.

>>> Question : Did Ahmad actually make a profit of $10 or lossof $5 which he claimed is the subsidy?

>> Answer:Ahmad makes a profit of $10 which is the difference of the sellingprice ($10) minus the cost price ($0 since the fish was caught from theabundance of the sea). There is no subsidy as claimed by Ahmad.

The government claims that it is a subsidy because the oil is keptand treated as somebody else's property (you know who). By right, theoilbelongs to all citizens of the country and the government is a trusteefor the citizens. So as in the above simple example, the governmentcannot claim that it has subsidised the citizen!

* This posting is just a personal opinion & analyst based on current event. I shall not take accountibility / should be liable for any damaged which might result from this posting. *

- The Source -

Better In Time

2008-07-12T18:41:00.000+08:00

To all those ppl out there who just had rough times in ur relationship,

This song is for u - Better In Times (Leona Lewis) - & Especially for YOU - u know who u are.

Weep - Realize - Move on !!. Enjoy.

Better In Times

It's been the longest winter without you
I didnt know where to turn to
See somehow I cant forget you
After all that we've been through

Go in, come in
Thought i heard a knockwho's there? No one
thinking that i deserved it
Now i realize that i really didnt know
You didnt notice, you mean everything
quickly im learning, to love again
All i know is, imma be ok

Thought i couldnt live without you

Its gonna hurt when it heals to
It'll all get better in time
Eventhough i really love you
Im gonna smile cause i deserve to
It'll all get better in time

How could i turn on the tv

Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy?
To just put aside your feelings

If im dreaming

Dont wanna let, hurt my feelings

But thats the path, i believe in
and i know that, time will heal it
You didnt notice, you mean everything
Quickly im learning, to love again
All i know is, imma be ok

Thought i couldnt live without you
Its gonna hurt when it heals to
It'll all get better in time
Eventhough i really love you
Im gonna smile cause i deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since theres no more you and me
Its time i let you go so i can be free
and live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is ill be fine without you
Yes i will

Thought i couldnt live without you
Its gonna hurt when it heals to
It'll all get better in time
Eventhough i really love you
Im gonna smile cause i deserve to
It'll all get better in time

(chorus till fade)

Going Blind

2008-07-11T16:17:00.000+08:00

I think I'm going blind.

Just took abit of time to post up something. Too wu liao, company internet server down.

Yesterday, I was lookin at the screen & i Notice that i had to focus hard to see properly what was written on the monitor.

Everday - Day & Nite facing the PC - Haiz.

Day Time - Working have to Look at LCD Screen.
Evening - Computer Lab have to Face PC.
Nite - Do coursework, research, watch drama all use Laptop.

Just a matter of time - You will see me wearing a glasses. Haiz... Gonna make me more geeky + Nook + Nerdy. OH NO...

Under Dogs

2008-07-09T23:55:00.000+08:00

Work is getting more & more stressful.

Actually, I'm not even sure if become a permanent staff in my company was really such good news. I felt gud to be recognize for the effort put forth so far & of course i was happy too.

I am still considerably happy rite now. However, the drastic increase in sales target set by the management for me has gotten me quite worried. 450 % rise in target le... I'm not superman... I'm just an UNDER-DOG.

I have been doing alot of thinking & consideration these few days. Part of me is so eager to voice out towards my management. Another part of me keeps whispering to me, telling me to shut up & work harder.

I am torn between 2 choices. Anyway, after much pondering - I decided what I would do. I have been an UNDER-DOG & will continue to be.

If you think I am weak... thinking that i would quit & give up so easily. I will definately prove you wrong !! I will try... i shall fight... You might expect me to whine & complaint - but things do change you know.

My attitude might have been wrong last time. But things have been changing & i will too. People who do not accept changes that comes along in time will only be left out.

“If you are going through hell, keep going.” - Wiston Churchill.

Stupid

2008-07-08T22:32:00.000+08:00

BM one of those stupid language.

A language hindering any progress & development !!! Why has the course work be done in a bloody Malay language.

Finish all the point, researching & everything... of course all in English & our leturer says you need to submit it in coursework, OK?

It wasn't so bad at first - Thinking that i could get some transalation help thru the web. But after going thru so many website & software... All kind of language but no Malay... NO BM... Just as i expected...

Talking bout BM - Reminds me of those brainless goverment official that don understand the simplest of English. Too much things to bang in 1 posting.... Wait till i have time, i will definately do another posting...

Doing my coursework - translation - MANUALLY... arghhh. !!!

Starting of a Journey

2008-07-04T23:18:00.000+08:00

Today... i am happy....

Normal day like usual, & working day as usual...Routine,expect that my contract ends today. Yes - TODAY.

4 July - 1500 hour - I had an interview appointment with REGIONAL , GROUP SENIOR HR MANAGER - Debbie.

Sounds like very geng, rite? Anyway, I've meet her many times - same building. But I was so damn nervous... so she started asking me questions which i just answered her one by one. My nervous feeling also gone. I guess it went smoothly - I was lectured by Debbie about the importance of a cert - blah blah blah... ^ ^

1700 hour - I did something which went against my JD / work protocol. Got busted my Daryl - my direct boss. Haiz - i broke my promise i made. Everything coiuld have been screw up... but that didnt matter to me... I for all person am willin to take responsibility for what i ve done. Since, I broke the rules... very well aware that it could be my last & very last day.

But that was not the biggest deal. I guess i let ppl who trust in me down again !! Could see he was reallydisappointed with me... didnt say much.. guess he also didnt know what to say.... But i could feel it.

1830 - Was asked to go into the meeting room with Priya - boss punya boss + boss. Well, blah blah blah... They offered me permanent contract - I was happy - really glad... but could have felt even better if i had not break protocol.

But - I feel HAPPPPYYYYY today !! ^ ^

Busy-ing

2008-07-02T23:13:00.000+08:00

Sorry people...

Its been a very busy strech of time rite now...

Busy with work... busy with study & other stuff...

Tiring... New posting will be added by 11 July 08...

- Calvin J -

11 June 2008

2008-06-12T14:40:00.000+08:00

It’s a Wednesday morning…. 8.30… Oh no… why did I not heard my phone’s alarm ring... !!!

Set the alarm at 7.40 yesterday nite… I woke up when the first call sounded… I guess I snooze it 1 too many times.

Anyway… there I was going thru the whole routine. Wash up + shower(quick one) – got dressed up & off I was – walking really swift… darn…. Just miss the monorail by 3 sec. Thank goodness the monorail comes every 5 min. (not like KTM)

At last… reached my office… I was 8 minutes late…. (A-G-A-I-N).

9.00 AM – ‘ Daniel ! In the room please – ‘ Daryl my boss said.

There were only 2 things going thru my mind

– 1.Punctuality 2. My Appraisal. Oh no... I going to be screwed this time.

* For those dun know – I am doing telemarketing & my employment is on a contract basis subjected to review every 6 months. Appraisal is done my bosses by evaluating my performance & discipline as a whole.

To summarize what transpired during that 1 to 1 meeting… I was definitely warned bout my punctuality & how this was not the first time, then the it went to the issue of my appraise/renewal of contract. Boss (STM) said that he had spoken to my big boss(RSM) regarding my renewal.

But RSM said they would have to re-consider as I was constantly going gainst the company’s rules & my punctuality sucks…

Of course my Boss did share some thoughts on how he thinks I was…. & he was true… I still have much more to learn. My way to approaching matters still immature – too outspoken, MOODY… Over confident….

But, Thank You boss… at least you informed me… I shall make changes…

Recollection : Late for school

2008-06-03T22:17:00.000+08:00

Today.... Everybody i chat with online are down....

I was in a good mood at first... but brought down by them....

But its ok... abit of music & things are up & running...

While deep in thoughts... i suddenly remembered my high skul days, remembered that it was quite fun, it was also a lot of hell...

How notorious i was in skul, got into the bad light among the teachers... The most famous - Late for school all the time... Although its a not a good confession, but half of be is proud to hold the record of most number of ' lewat datang ke sekolah' record...

Haha... that brought back a bit of smile to me... Out of the 200 over days of compulsory schoolling.. i was only absent for around 10 days.. including ponteng & really sick. But my 'lewat ke sekolah' record was just supervb... ^^... almost 70 % late to school...

Well, not that i support ppl being late... but still to me it is a memorable part of my life...

........ coming back to now.... I'm still struggling to be punctual .... Thank goodness my boss is not so strict... or else... if not sure long time 'fry sotong'

* Back to reality *

Die... All die in the end.... DIE !!!

2008-06-03T00:04:00.000+08:00

Its happening .... A little later than might have been expected....

First implimentation -AUGUST 2008 suggested by Ministry...

This is what I would imagine in a not too long future.....

Fuel Prices Increase - Turn to Alternative - Biofuel (Oil Palm) - Other archiculture neglacted - Shortage of Staple - Increase of Food - Everything increases - Cut on Employment - More layman unemployed - More Crime - Everybody DIES....

DIE DIE DIE.....

Where are we heading to ? Why all these unfairness.....

'Poor getting poorer.... Rich getting richer.... '

Sigh

2008-06-02T23:54:00.000+08:00

Putting this feeling down in writing..

Arkward it may seems... Its like being attached to it...

Dunno how to describe it.... But i shall remember this familiar feeling.... This day.... June 3....

Where am i heading to??

Haiz..... A long one indeed.... & it wont be the last...

I will 'see' again soon....

Outlook of matters...

2008-06-01T22:54:00.000+08:00

During the weekends, went hang out with some of my brothers frenz at Bangsar .
We were talking bout current developments in the life. Everyone seemed to be doing very well. At a certain point, we talked bout career & salaries.

Oh my, all of them were earning alot !!! All of the sudden, I felt so insignificant so ashamed of myself .

Joshua (23) - Programmer at DIGI - paid RM 500 + for 8 hours of OvT.
Brandon(24) - Asst Mngr at HSBC - basic earning - RM5.5 K,
Tan(21) - Tele-Collector - 2 yrs older than me, just got his new VIOS ( on installment of course )

I felt so useless as what I am earning would be no where near them. I felt the pressure. I asked myself, ' What is wrong with me ? ' ' Am i not as good as them ? '

After a while I realized that in life - there is alwiz 2 kinds of outlook when looking at things.
Its something like this, we can look at others with envy - others better than us; But have we ever compare ourselves with those less fortunate & say to ourselves 'How lucky I am !! '

Our outlook towards things really can affect our mood & happiness.

Lesson drawn from this - In some point of life, comparison is good as we will strive to improve. However, being contented & appreciative for what we already have is more important.

The fact is - we might compare ourselves with others but each of us possess a measure of valuable things.

These would include a our health & strength, inborn mental abilities & gift/talents or financial resources.

Rather than being dissatisfied with what we don't have, shouldn't we think how lucky we really & proud for who we are ?